OK, here we go. First journal entry. Time to admit my weight in writing. 202 lbs. There. I said it. <whew> Now to do something about it. When I turned 31 I weighed 138 and was about to run my first half marathon. Best shape of my life. Then I got married, helped my husband through his battle with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, then had my daughter a few months before my 37th birthday. From there I just kept packing on the pounds. Now I'm 44 and sick and tired of being fat. I used to ride my bike a lot, so my husband tuned up my wheels after 10 years in the garage, and I went out for my first ride last Monday. 5.7 miles. I thought the hills would kill me, but I survived. I go to the Y and do aqua exercise classes 2 times a week. I have arthritis in my knees and hips already, so the water feels great. I also try to walk at least 3 miles sometime during the week. I'm trying to mix up my exercise routine so I don't get bored and give up. I think I can do this, but it's so easy to talk myself out of it. You guys need to hold me accountable. My other problem is food. I love food. And I have an IMPOSSIBLE time turning away from it. I can be staring into the pantry, knowing that I'm not really hungry, that I should just walk away - and still I grab something out and say "Oh well". It's horrible. I just can't say no. I have no willpower. The fat around my belly is so dense that I have a hard time bending over to tie my shoes. I can't keep living this way. Something HAS to change. Today. Now. So here's what my plan is. Every time I want to grab something to eat when I know I shouldn't, I'm going to write a journal entry. Maybe that will shame me into passing on the "snack".
I don't have a timeframe for my goal weight, just to lose a pound a week would be great. To actually see the scale going in the other direction for a change. To not be the only fat Mom on our street.
So there it is. I hope I can actually do this.
Diet Calendar Entry for 14 September 2013:
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1031 kcal
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Fat: 45.92g | Prot: 48.20g | Carb: 103.98g.
Breakfast: 2% Fat Milk, White Bread, Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg with Cheese and Ham or Bacon. Lunch: Red Kidney Beans (Canned), Garbanzo Beans, Pasta or Macaroni Salad with Oil and Vinegar-Type Dressing. Snacks/Other: Land O'Lakes Traditional Half & Half, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds). more...
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