Edit: I updated my entry to 137.4 because I mistyped it and lost the whole entry.
Ocean_girl, I'm so sorry that your thoughtful and meaningful comment got lost.
I absolutely didn't want to work out today. I literally spent 20 minutes trying to talk myself out of a 45 minute workout.
My excuses are ridiculous and stupid and range from everything like, "I have SO much work to do". (Which do - but I always do.) to (my favorite!), but I worked out yesterday and the day before and I'm sore and I can take the third day off because NOBODY CARES BUT ME".
Which I guess is the point. If I don't make this choice for myself, nobody else can make it for me.
Then I remembered that I'm working out to bring my resting heart rate down. I'm working out because I want to feel strong and confident in my body.
I'm working out because, in a world where so much else is out of my control, I can at least control this.
So I did.
And it felt good.
I can tackle my mountain of work. I'll get that metric fuck ton of laundry done. But most importantly, I kept a promise to myself. I can't expect anyone else to take my word as a bond if I can't even keep the promises I make to myself.