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I'm back and I'm here to stay. I have had a really rough year and it's still NOT over. I've been through hell and back really. My 26 year old neighbor hung herself, I was asked by her mother to see if she was still alive and cut her down if she was; because she couldn't do it. Shortly after that, my hateful 85 year old grandmother did something that brought back my abusive childhood to the fore front. I cut her off, she damn near killed me - so out of self preservation I refuse to see her anymore to this day. At work, some major crap going on there being bullied by a co-worker. Not to mention dealing with work stress at a Shelter where I have to euthanize animals. I just about lost it all.. something snapped in me and I got so depressed I did something stupid. I ended up being put in the hospital for awhile to save me from myself. My best friend since childhood also dropped me, she said something about me bringing drama into her life.... the list continues to go on. I got so stressed out I stopped caring about what I put in my body. My Vit D levels got down to a 12 which is critical. They should be on the low side at least 50! The Docs kept telling me that my Vit D levels were making me depressed, tired, ect. Meanwhile, I've known since 2008 that I am allergic to dairy and but during this stressful time I stopped being "careful" about what I was eating because it just took too much effort which I didn't have the energy for. Honestly also a part of me I didn't give a damn anymore. Meanwhile this past year I've put on 55 pounds... I am hoping that most of it is inflammation though. Currently I am going through physical therapy right because I both tendons in my arms are hurting me terribly, and they are very weak. In general I'm in so much pain, my body hurts, my joints ache which I figured was due to eating foods that have dairy in them. Well, the orthopedic doctor figured I had something underlying going on so he did some blood work. Again my Vit D levels are still critical so I've been prescribed 50,000 units of Vit D for the second time in a year. By the way, I've been sunburnt three times this summer. Some of my labs came back that I had something underlying going on so I was referred to a Arthritis specialist. Had my first appointment last week and was told that my ANA levels and RA levels (inflammation markers) were both elevated. He told me that the ANA markers are specific to Lupus. So in a nutshell, he ordered more blood work (that I'm waiting on) and told me that he suspected Lupus but wanted to wait until the addition blood work was in to make a diagnosis. Sooo.. to make a very long story short it's not Lupus I have.. it's Lyme disease and I've had it 17 years UNTREATED.... (LONG STORY) It has already reached my brain and I've having neurological symptoms and It cannot be cured. It is fatal and it can also disable me and put me in a wheel chair and even make me mentally handicapped. The only thing I can do is put it in remission by a alkaline diet, year long antibiotic therapy (both oral and IV). I cannot eat any sugar, processed foods, dairy, and I must keep meat to a minimum. It's on longer option for me.. If I want to live this is what I have to do or it destroy me. I'd rather control the Lyme than have the Lyme control me. Wish me luck because it's NOT going to be easy for me...
Diet Calendar Entry for 23 June 2013:
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1102 kcal
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Fat: 44.75g | Prot: 54.39g | Carb: 124.94g.
Breakfast: Egg, Egg White, Dole Organic Bananas, 365 Organic Early Bird Multi Seed Bread, 365 Orange Juice, Maranatha all natural, no stir peanut butter, crunchy. Lunch: Spinach taco dinner. more...
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