Ms Elizabeth's Journal, 18 March 2013

Pickles! I did it again. I got down to 152.0 and then.. I couldn't stop eating yesterday. BUT.. I'm pretty sure I burned off everything I ate. Maybe.. I still need to add it all into the JM site to see. The worst is I may have eaten 500-600 more than I burned off. Not too bad. I burned that much and then some the day before. So why do I keep doing this? I read a weightloss article that said to ask yourself why you're eating when you do this. So I tried...

Why was I eating Jamocha Almond Crunch ice cream at 1:30? Because little man woke up from his nap and I wasn't done with mine yet. I was sooooo freakin tired, upset even. 8 yr old said oh don't worry I will watch him for you.. then proceeded to piss him off so he was screaming. Hubby snored right though the whole thing. Soo.. little man and I devoured ice cream. All 800 calories worth. So I know why I ate the ice cream.. but it didn't stop me.

Then there was the oreos.... why did I eat the oreos? Because I was upset with myself for eating the ice cream. lol This is where I started lying to myself. Well.. I read an article about giving myself a spike day to break through platues. Only problem with this theory.. I'm not at a freakin platue. I still tried to sell myself this theory while I stuffed a mega stuffed oreo in my pie hole. Next was the popcorn.. if I can't stop stuffing my pie hole then I might as well stuff my pie hole with something low cal!

So.. I have now over analyzed every reason for why I was eating. It didn't stop me from eating though! I must have missed the other half of this article in the back of the magazine or something.

The thing is.. I screwed up. I own the fact that I screwed up. I'm human. Humans screw things up. But.. I'm back on track. Persistance is the key! And today? Today I'm gonna make myself proud. I'm already proud I sqeezed into some size 8 slacks last friday. Now I need to focus on that and not the fact that my thighs and butt look a lot bigger than I remember the last time I was in size 8's. Then again.. I was 16 at the time. I'm sure everything looked smaller then.