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Day 6 away. So much to report -- can you stand another long-winded journal?!? "My room" opened up (sadly because the family member who was staying there left after his mother passed). So, I have a microwave, real shower, etc again. I am miffed somewhat by how well this time away is going, even as Mom & her prognosis deteriorates (I'll get to that). Although in the recent past, times like these would have triggered intense sugar cravings & binges, I'm not feeling it this time at all... yet?!? It really makes me wonder how much is hormonal for me at this time as I also struggle through menopause. (For those who don't know my story, I struggled horribly with sugar binging when in my 20s -- I'm 52 now -- after the death of my sister from skin cancer. Then after getting married & having my 2 sons in my later 20s, all settled down & I'd been at a healthy weight with minimal sugar issues. I felt I'd found my purpose in life as being a Mom has been the best thing for me. Even after both boys went away to college starting 2 years ago, life has been good & my weight/eating has not been an issue.). Enter menopause! Since then & even though my other symptoms have been relatively mild (sleep problems & night sweats), the sugar cravings/binges came back with a vengeance. Not that it changes my need to find a way to deal healthfully with it, but I'm really wondering how much is hormonal?
Anyway, I'm still feeling good & strong. And, not even obsessing that I can't monitor my weight daily like I do at home. (FullaBella, I'm sure I could track down a scale somewhere, but since I always weigh 1st thing in the morning before breakfast, don't want to try to figure out how that would translate to sometime/some scale here.). And, I'm finding it a bit freeing to be away from the #, & so far it's only helped keep me on track as I look forward to seeing what the # will be when I get home & will get to weigh in Fri morning. Since I know I've done my best eating out so many meals, I'm felling ok with whatever that # is.
So, yesterday, I got the news that Moms prognosis is Alzheimer's. It threw me at first, as my limited knowledge somehow thought Mom had dementia & that that was a more mild form. After some reading last night, I now realize that dementia is just the symptom, but the disease is Alzheimer's. She's just in the initial phase, but as you may know, it is progressive & will get worse. At 85 years old, she has had a good life, although after losing my sister, she/her life was never really the same. That's a journal in itself & while it's never something you totally get over, time does help heal the wound, good things do come from tragedies & I have worked through many of my feelings (in addition to the grief over losing my sister, I had to work through the loss of my Mom/some aspects of our relationship). I spoke with her support staff here at the home & we're meeting Weds morning to discuss programs they have here for their Alzheimer's residents, as well as increasing her level of care. I've been trying to manage it all long distance (took over her checkbook/finances, took away her car & finalizing transferring that to a cousin today, trying to oversee her medications/doctors/medical issues), so it'd be a relief to have some help with that.
Thanks so much, my FS friends, for listening once again! You've providied such amazing support & I'd never be feeling this good without you! Will keep praying, journaling & logging my way though this trip, and have been heeding your great advice to take care of myself too. So, off to workout this morning, lunch with Mom & my 2 aunts & cousins. Then a dinner date with my best friend since 2nd grade & mother of the bride (her Mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's a few years ago & is in the mid/late stage, so we have much to commiserate about, as well as reliving her daughters/my god daughters amazing wedding). So, off I go one day, meal, moment at a time & each one more grateful for all of you!
Diet Calendar Entries for 04 December 2012:
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1340 kcal
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Fat: 29.11g | Prot: 61.88g | Carb: 210.52g.
Breakfast: Blackberries , Blueberries , Raspberries , Strawberries , Organic Lowfat Plain Yogurt, Pure Premium Coconut Water with Mango. Lunch: Apple-Cranberry Spinach Salad with Reduced-fat Raspberry Dressing. Dinner: Classic Tart Frozen Yogurt, Soybeans (Mature Seeds, with Salt, Cooked, Boiled) , Yellowfin Tuna (Fish) , Salmon, Sushi with Vegetables rolled in Seaweed. Snacks/Other: Golden Delicious Apples, Seasonal Fresh Fruit Salad, Live Granola Bar. more...
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1726 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Dance (fast step, aerobic) - 1 hour, Stretching (yoga) - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 14 hours. more...
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