Fritzy 22's Journal, 08 July 2018

Haven't been around for awhile. The eating got out of control for over 2 weeks. It started when I hurt my back and spent the best part of 2 weeks in pain and carrying a heating pad from room to room (finally bought a 2nd one). During that time I was not cooking, not motivated to eat well and gave in to more cravings than I knew I had. Haven't weighed myself since the last weigh in 20 days ago and don't want to - I would guess I'm up another 7 pounds at least. When I do bad, I do soooooooooo bad! I decided I would try a 48 hour fast. Want to feel empty again, and then get back on track. Funny thing is, while eating bad, I didn't really enjoy it, but had to eat everything bad I had bought before starting over again. Really don't understand how my brain works. I made a chart to keep track of how many hours I've gone with out food and how many hours are left. Right now I am 16 hours into it with 32 hours left. I also charted out a 72 hour fast, just in case I feel like I can do it. I'm having only clear liquids and taking some vitamins. Maybe I'll have some broth and am considering Jello if this gets too hard. But I've done 24 hours a few times and used to do 16 hours every day with an 8 hour window of eating. I think the anti inflammatory medicine kind of gave me my first excuse to cheat. I was taking it every 12 hours and you need to take with food. I don't need it anymore, the pain is almost completely gone. I'll check in from time to time to keep myself honest.