smiles507's Journal

SUNDAY & MONDAY-DAY 14 & 15

Well all day Sunday I felt awful. Didn't move all day. I didn't get a chance to record anything so I'm doing it today. Now if I could only remember what I ate on Sunday... =/

I decided to try something new with chicken this week. Since I've been eating it the same way for about 2 weeks now, I was starting to get sick of it. I saw the recipe on a TV commercial for mayonnaise. I'll post the link for anyone interested. I was pleasantly surprised! It was actually really good and only 2g of carbs per serving!

Hellmans Parmesan Crusted Chicken


Well tomorrow is Valentines Day and thank GOD I don't like chocolates or sweets (my weaknesses are fried foods). But I'll still face a challenge. My adorable father asked me to be his Valentine and OF COURSE he wants to go to the Chinese buffet... yay! LOL

SATURDAY-DAY 13

I don't think I've ever ate so little in my life. I know I've said it before but I think today I consumed the least amount of carbs since I've been on a diet. It wasn't intentional either. I literally had no time to eat today. I'm a bartender and tonight was absolutely insane! Finally at the end of the night I managed to have half of my salad but even then I still had to clean up. I'm starving right now but I don't want to go to sleep with a full stomach. I may have a spoon full of peanut butter or a piece of cheese to hold me over til tomorrow. At least I got a nice workout in tonight! :)

FRIDAY-DAY 12

After 12 days of eating nothing but chicken and salad and sometimes even CHICKEN SALAD! I had enough, I was going to snap. I wanted to order a pizza all day. I was having ridiculous cravings for junk and salt (and alot of it!) So I had two cups of chicken broth thinking that it would satisfy my salt craving. It did... for about 5 minutes! I was like a mad woman! My mother (who ranges in size from 0-4) kept telling me, "NO! You'll regret it tomorrow!" So I, being the witch I am (usually that's what diets turn me into) say to her, "What could you possibly know about craving junk? You can eat anything you want and you don't gain weight, you've always been tiny, you're 51 yrs old and you have a better body than me so SHUT IT!"

LOL, Luckily, my mom and I have a very good and very open relationship. We can say anything to each other and no one ever gets offended. She just laughed and said, "I think I like you better when you eat junk. You have a nicer attitude."

So I did what any fat kid would do and I waited until she went to bed and drove to Burger King, with full intent on sabotaging myself just because of a little carb withdrawl. But something weird happened. On my way there I kept thinking about how good I was doing and then I asked myself, "Why are you doing this to yourself again?! When is it going to stop?" So I ended up with a bun-less double whopper, no tomato of course, replaced the fries with a salad and it wasn't so bad. Felt like I was cheating a tiny bit, even though I only consumed about 9 carbs in all. Mind over matter I guess? Or maybe it was my mothers words that kept echoing in my head. So manipulative, so evil and always right. Damn, she's good.

THURSDAY-DAY 11

Hard to believe, but I think today was a bigger challenge for me then the first day I started this diet. I went out to eat with my father today and he absolutely LOVES Chinese Buffets. I know they're not the healthiest places to eat while on or off a diet and sometimes the food itself is questionable but he won't go anywhere else.

I didn't go near the lo-mien or the pork fried rice, anything breaded or my favorite cheese wontons. Instead I had beef and broccoli, chicken and broccoli, prime rib, salmon (I tried it, didn't like it), bacon wrapped scallops, cheesy crab stuffed clams and wonton soup (without the wontons, just the broth). I have to say it was the first time I ever left there not feeling full. It was weird. I couldn't find half the stuff I ate to record it in my food diary so I kinda winged it.

After that I went food shopping so I can make meals for the rest of the week and Walmart had a few of their Atkins products on sale so I bought about three boxes of bars. I guess that was the highlight of my day!

WEDNESDAY-DAY 10

Today was OK, despite the headache which I think I'm starting to get used to. I thought they would of stopped by now, but NO! I'm drinking lots of water but I guess it wouldn't hurt to drink a little bit more. I had no appetite today but it's funny because whenever I see the commercial for Lays Potato Chips, the one where the girl opens the bag, I could actually smell them. LOL, how pathetic is that?! ahhhahaha!