Maybe I am 2 persons: a highly successful artist and potter with a social life to die for and friends who love my feasts and treats and company. When they leave I become the depressed unhappy fat lady who reaches for the leftovers and forgets that my life is full and good. Food had always been my comfort zone....and not junk food. Delicious fresh healthy tasty food that will make Ramsey or Nigella swoon in delight. Now to stick to my dream goal: Loose the weight and be the star of my own wonderful life! I hide behind others in photos, I ask reporters to take photos of my work and not of me! I had been invited to teach a master class in Italy and will be in newsletters, videos and publications! Dates had been set and the program flows from my skilful hands...but the fear of my body is a constant nightmare. All my girlfriends are skinny! It is easy for them to say...just exercise! A lifelong geek and very creative spirit but that word scares me most!