ctina

Start Weight:(07 Oct 11) 225.0 lb
Current Weight:(07 Oct 11) 225.0 lb
Goal Weight:175.0 lb
following: ctina's own diet
performance: losing 1.0 lb a week

I am a mother of 3. I was always fairly happy with my weight when I was younger. I gained a lot with each pregnancy and kept a good 15 pounds as a souvenir from each one. We moved to the U.S. 10 years ago, so the new lifestyle (driving everywhere, walking less) and the food options here added another 30 pounds. So here I am. I am definetly an emotional eater, sometimes a binge eater. I used to always joke and say: "I love food and food loves me!" It's always easier when you are the one making jokes about your own weight, but it kills you to hear judgements from others, especially those close to you. For the last decade I would 'hide-binge' behind closed doors. I would often eat before we would go out with friends or to a party, so that I wouldn't eat too much later. I felt self-concious about eating. I never did when I was younger, but someone in my family has managed to make me feel guilt when it comes to eating with comments like: "you are going to eat all that", or "you're having seconds", even when everyone else there was having second and third helpings. That's when the secret binges started. Often it was just even a look that made me feel that way. The last straw was a few weeks ago, while I was watching a preview of 'Biggest Looser' and the comment came: "See, it IS possible!" Supposedly it was meant motivational, but it just hurt. Because as most of you know it is soooo hard to diet, it is such a struggle. But I don't want to put all the blame on this person. It is certainly still my decision at the end of the day what I do or do not eat. Of course it does not help that I am not a big fan of exercising, but I am trying to do so anyway. Anyway this will turn into a full blown biography if I don't quit. But it felt good to get all this out, since it's not something I tell anyone else.
Thanks for listening to me whine. Good Luck to all of you with your own battles!

FatSecret member since: 16 Oct 07

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ctina's Cookbook

cals: 206kcal | fat: 6.59g | carbs: 33.42g | prot: 6.04g
Peanut Butter & Apple Sandwich
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Loss of willpower?
I feel that way when I am depressed or hormonal. It's okay to eat more every once in a while, we all need a little break from time to time, but try to find out what's going on that makes you "not care what you're putting in your mouth" and realize that no amount of food will make you feel better. It will only make you feel guilty. Like I said going of the diet for a day or so is okay, but no amount of food is going to taste as good as being thinner and healthier will feel. Keep that in mind. You deserve it, you can do it! Just don't get down on yourself. Put it behind yourself and go on!
posted 19 Dec 2007, 07:56
Biggest Loser Season 3
Did anybody happen to see who won the season 4 finale of the biggest loser???
posted 18 Dec 2007, 23:25
Any tips on dealing with hormonal appetite increases?
Has anyone found any vitamins or foods that help curb this hole in my stomach that I get everytime it's THAT time of the month, when the hormones are going haywire??? Doubt
posted 30 Oct 2007, 16:56
WW online
I did WW a couple of years ago and wasn't that thrilled with my leader/group either, so I have decided to do it on my own this time. I still have the paperwork regarding points and such and I ordered a points calculator on ebay. So far so good. Some people really benefit from the meetings, but they aren't for everyone. The main idea for me is being disciplined with my eating and exercise and realizing that it's not just for short term, but forever (lifestyle change----correct). That's what we can't forget. You can't look at it as a diet to do until you drop the weight or you WILL gain it all back. That's something I keep having to remind myself of. (so not fun!)Good Luck to all!
posted 21 Oct 2007, 11:00
Everyone should read 'You:on a diet' and 'Natural Cures' and watch the Documentary 'Supersize me'
They will change the way you look at or think about food and how you shop for food! I moved here 10 years ago and gained 30 pounds in the first year. I am now convinced that it's all the processed foods, chemicals, hormones, pesticides, and whatever other additives they add to make america obese. Of course it doesn't help that we drive more and walk less here. Besides increase the shelf-life and wallets of the food industry do we know what all these additives do to our health. The pharmaceutical and medical industry certainly benefit from an obese america more than a healthy / trim one.
Food for thought.... ?!
posted 17 Oct 2007, 09:08
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27 March 2009

still keeping up with my exercise, doubled the cardio from 20 to 40 minutes, and alternating weight-training either upper or lower body for another 20-30 ...
on diet ctina's own diet  losing 0.2 lb a week

13 February 2009

exercising regularly - not paying attention to dieting & PMS-ing - that pretty much sums up the last week..............
on diet ctina's own diet  gaining 1.0 lb a week

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