Hello ! Im 30 years old and growing up had always been big boned ! My average weight is about 140, in my teen age years I started experimenting with speed ,aka Meth! I was strung out by my early 20's and spent all of my 20's chasing after the drug because of the weight I lost and kept off with using it ! I had gotten down to 119 on that drug, I thought I looked SO GOOD ! Looking back at pics, I looked like DEATH ! Well, around 26 , I met my husband and he was not a speed freak , and didnt do drugs so I cleaned myself up. Soon after us getting together , I became pregnant with my first and only child. We had a little girl. When I came off the drugs I weighed 130, and then prolly put on 10 pounds , making me 140 , then after my pregnancy I ended up a whooping 210 lbs !!! That was 2 and 1/2 years ago. I did good in the first year , dropped down to 169, but in this last year and 1/2 I have put back on 17 lbs ,so now weighing in at 187 !!!I am a stay at home mom and have ate alot out of boredom. Im currently looking into getting back to work. I have applications out like crazy, been looking for a few weeeks now . Fingers crossed I land a job soon so I am not just sitting around the house anymore. I cannot hit 200 and will not thats why IM HERE :):) I am doing this counting calories here on fatsecret and portioning starting today, as well as trying to doing some working out daily !!Thanks for listening and supporting !