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14 March 2017

So, I've been sick since Saturday night....finally went to the Dr. this afternoon. They gave me Prednisone. I hate steroids. Not only do they make me want to eat everything in sight (maybe that's a mental thing?), but between that and me going a bit overboard with food today I'm already mentally planning for the scale to show gain on Saturday. If that's the case, I'll accept it and move on. But I'm still going to dread the moment until then.

I'm not mentally weak, at least I don't think I am, but I was up all night last night coughing to the point of thinking I was going to throw up, sore throat that feels like a giant hot spot in your throat that no amount of water can quench, repeated bathroom trips due to said quenching attempts and general feeling of unwell. So....naturally I brokw down weeping when I was telling the Dr. my symptoms. I was crying, apologizing for being so emotional, then crying more because I was quite embarrassed. I know Dr.'s have seen it all, but still.

On a more interesting (to me anyway) and less sappy note, I decided to try Match.com for 3 months. I'm not quite to the weight I wanted, but I decided what the hell....

Happy almost Hump Day!!!

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12 March 2017

I'm sick! Started feeling the crud last night. It's deep in my chest, low fever and headache. No appetite, but did chug some coffee to try and soothe the throat. Chicken noodle soup this afternoon. Moved from the bed to the couch, couch to the kitchen, and kitchen back to the bed.

This is awful to feel the need to be so sedentary on the day the clocks go forward. I greatly dislike daylight savings time.

Weigh-in: 250.8 lb

lost so far: 0 lb

still to go: 75.8 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

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11 March 2017

Little more than a pound!! Yippee!!!

I was definitely nervous after my little donut binge yesterday, but besides that bad morning, I was good the rest of the day. I can't decide if I was kind of hoping for no loss to teach myself to stay on track, or if I'm showing myself that I as long as I make good choices most of the time, I have a little wiggle room. Like the 80/20 rule, maybe? I should probably stick closer to a 90/10 rule though.

Got up early and ran my "Saturday errands". Hit the cash machine for cash for the week, stopped for gas, mailed a package and got a haircut. Now I'm off to the grocery store.

Happy Saturday all.

Weigh-in: 250.8 lb

lost so far: 0 lb

still to go: 75.8 lb

Diet followed reasonably well

add comment losing 1.4 lb a week

10 March 2017

Tomorrow is my weigh-in day and so far I'm off to a rock start. I've eaten 2 1/2 donuts. UGH. I totally deserve the stomachache I have. Usually I try to eat light and push the water on Friday, since I normally weigh on Saturday, just for some extra help. Well, I guess if I gain, it serves me right for making crappy choices.

Also, I probably went over yesterday on calories, but I'm not sure. I met with a girlfriend for supper and had a grilled chicken sandwich with teriyaki, pineapple, cheese and Canadian bacon. It's called the Aloha Burger and it's majorly delish. I couldn't find anything similar in the database, but also I have no idea what the individual portion sizes were. Was is 4 oz. of chicken or 6 oz.? Was it 1 oz. of sliced cheese or 2 oz.?

I hate that. :( Boy, I must be crabby or something....

Happy Friday FS peeps!!

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06 March 2017

So this is a bit long, but I'm feeling a bit frustrated and annoyed. And part of my frustration and annoyance is that I feel frustrated and annoyed. UGH.

I'm not doing poorly. I have lost about 14 pounds these six weeks I've been tracking. I'm actually doing pretty good and I'm happy with the changes I see and feel. I usually have no trouble staying under my RDI, which I currently have set at 1800. And 1800 is actually under my true RDI when I calculate based on my weight. However, even though I have days where I get a little carried away, and on the days when I stay under I still account for the little things that make me happy, I'm still just feeling deprived. Why am I feeling so sorry for myself?

I think the reason is this. I have such a toxic relationship with food that even though I do have little treats, like ice cream sandwiches & girl scout cookies, etc. The things I really, REALLY love I just can't eat without going overboard. Today I was sitting at work and spent like two or three minutes just thinking about how much I would love onion rings. I even Googled a picture of onion rings. No lie.

I need to find things that make me happy other than food. I think when I got divorced, food became my friend. I don't want to eat like that anymore. I don't want to have the body that those actions have given me anymore. I have been sleeping better, feeling more rested. I don't wake up with extreme thirst anymore in the middle of the night or get shakes/sweats if I go too long without food. I'm doing really great. So why to I just want to quit/cry/feed my face?

I need to get out there and start over, find a new fella and build my life with someone...but I WANT to be better physically first. Look good naked!!! Hubba hubba!! That's it. That's my heart on the page tonight.

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