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09 July 2014
Thanks everyone for the kind words yesterday. I'm just going to leave group fitness classes off the plan for a week or two. I have, however lodged a complaint. If I'm paying for a service, I deserve to receive that service, and if that instructor wants to keep getting paid, he needs to be reminded to deliver the service he's being paid for, not whatever he wants to do.
Weigh-in:
187.0 lb
lost so far:
15.0 lb
still to go:
37.0 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
(3 comments)
steady weight
08 July 2014
I had a horrible experience at the gym yesterday. I'm a member of the Y, and they have yoga classes of varying intensity all through the week. Lots of "all levels" and some intense ones, and a very few beginner classes. I've never taken a yoga class before and I know I'm really not flexible or strong enough to get much benefit from a class where they spend 5 minutes in a pose I can only hold for a few seconds, so I waited all week until a beginner class that fit my schedule happened.
I was nervous enough doing something for the first time. Add to that the fact that I was by far the largest person in the room, and I was having a hard time controlling my fear. But I will not give in to unreasonable fears, and the only way to become good at something you suck at is to do it until you get better. So I stayed.
The instructor began the class talking about how we were going to start out "pretty vigorous" and get into some stretching near the end. This did not quell my fears. And sure enough, it started fast and hard. I was coated in sweat in the first 5 minutes, trying to follow along as he went pretty fast. He kept showing a pose I could only barely get into, and then spending a long time in it, showing off advanced variations, which most of the class was attempting. I had to keep stopping to breathe, just sitting there on my hands and knees, head pressed against the mat, working on my breathing and telling my limbs to shut up and just work. At one point I was so dizzy, I almost blacked out. But no one else seemed to be having troubles, so I just gritted my teeth and did the best I could.
The end of class came, and a lot of students approached him to thank him for the class. I was just trying to clean my mat and put it away and get out of there, but I was so worn out, I was moving very slowly. He walked past me on his way out the door and asked if I was okay. He had clearly seen me struggling, our eyes met repeatedly throughout the hour, but he had never come over to check on me, despite spending a lot of time correcting other student's postures. All I could manage to blurt out in response was "that was a BEGINNER class?"
He laughed at me. He actually laughed right in my face and said "No, was it supposed to be?" I bit my lip and got out of there as fast as I could. I even managed to make it to the change room toilets before breaking down sobbing.
I'm still so angry and frustrated and humiliated that I started crying again, just typing all this out. I don't know what to do. I can't let "Someone was mean to me" be an excuse to derail my fitness plans, but I really don't think I could put myself through that again. I don't want to complain, because most of the students seemed to get what they were looking for out of it, I'm the only one who had a problem.
How do I find an ACTUAL beginner class? One where I won't be openly mocked for being a beginner?
Weigh-in:
187.0 lb
lost so far:
15.0 lb
still to go:
37.0 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
(20 comments)
steady weight
07 July 2014
Went on a long walk, but forgot my pedometer again. I'm going to stick to the "If your steps aren't counted, then they don't count" maxim to keep me honest.
It's been a rough weekend. Hopefully the fact that another pound has come off this morning is a portent of a good week starting.
A few errands, then off to the gym. I haven't gone the last two days, and I've realised I really miss it!
Weigh-in:
187.0 lb
lost so far:
15.0 lb
still to go:
37.0 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
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losing 7.0 lb a week
06 July 2014
Yesterday was a wash for me. Stayed in bed all day and read a book cover to cover, one of my most reliable ways to hit "reset" on my brain when it starts malfunctioning. The only issue was that I started reading around 3pm, and finished around 2am, and didn't get up at all in that time to eat. I was feeling seriously sick by the time I was done, having a major blood sugar crash. I MUST remember to eat, even if the low-carb thing leaves me without hunger pangs. Small meals of 150-300 calories 4-6 times a day, without fail is the way to keep me happy and healthy.
Weigh-in:
188.0 lb
lost so far:
14.0 lb
still to go:
38.0 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
(6 comments)
steady weight
05 July 2014
I made it to the gym last night, but only had the energy for 6 kms on the exercise bike. I didn't even manage a shower, just changed and came home, then went to bed.
Bad nightmares last night. Woke up to find I had torn my shoulder muscle (again) and ripped a new hole in my pillow. I don't know if I'll be capable of leaving the house without having a seizure today. This is why I push myself so hard on days when I am capable, I never know when I'll have a bad day to cope with.
The scale isn't moving. And I took out a tape measure only to find out I'm not losing inches, either. Please do NOT tell me what you think I'm doing wrong, I really don't need it today. Also, I'll listen to one of my 3 doctors tell me what is going on with my body, not you. No one here has enough information to have an informed opinion. I'm pretty sure it's just a minor plateau, and I need to just keep doing what I'm doing and it'll head down again, but it's demoralizing to be working this hard without immediate tangible results. I'll see what Dr. H has to say on Monday.
Bleah.
Weigh-in:
188.0 lb
lost so far:
14.0 lb
still to go:
38.0 lb
Diet followed reasonably well
(1 comment)
steady weight
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