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Was hoping for another pound, but I'll take the one.
The past couple of days, I've started wishing we didn't have to eat. Food is a pain in the ass sometimes. I get tired of having to plan what I'm gonna eat. All the effort put forth in planning and preparation is just a royal pain. I totally get convenience foods-but the ingredients these days...it's just not worth it. I can find some decent convenience foods in the 'healthy' section at the store, but I can't justify $5-$6 for a meal that I don't know how it tastes. I could make 3+ meals for $6. Anyway, I guess I just need a break from a lot of stuff. Everything seems to sit on my shoulders and that's when I feel the loneliest and wish I had a special someone in my life to help ease the...whatever. And that loneliness is usually what triggers my bad choices in food, which once eaten trigger the bad chemicals in the bad food with the 'feel good' chemicals in my head, which trigger the emotional bottom dropping out on me...the whole downward spiral thing.
It's a good thing my friend is coming over tonight to unwind. I sure could use the company. I just hope she doesn't have to cancel or that could send my brain into self-destruct. I know I should have more self-esteem so that I won't crumble when people cancel on me. I know shit happens. I understand that. But it still hurts. AAAAANYWAY.....here's to killing some wine tonight! Oh, yeah....YAY 1 POUND! :-)
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218.0 lb
Lost so far: 22.0 lb.
Still to go: 78.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 1.0 lb a week
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