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What I want for myself is to change the way I think about food, about eating and about the scale. Somewhere along the journey of childhood I came to define myself by my weight and my appearance. I judged my sense of self by that and lost the battle every time. Food became my comfort, my companion and my “something to look forward to”. I understand the stupidity of it, and yet it is so ingrained. To stay within a calorie and body movement range is crucial, as is something to gauge my honesty about how much I eat. On the other hand, the very act of keeping a watchful track of everything is a setup for the obsession. A successful food plan depends on my ability to keep it from becoming a “religion” or a way to define my self worth. Sometimes I have to step away from it all to pause the game of seeing how much I can eat to either gain or lose weight per the scale. Yet when I step away from calculating all this, I need the honesty of periodic weigh-ins to keep me from self-deception. What a Nut, Lol!
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277.0 lb
Lost so far: 4.0 lb.
Still to go: 41.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 0.5 lb a week
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