icymaiden's Journal, 18 November 2011

I think you're right! But it is a good feeling to get 'unstuck'! :) Even if you're not overly sure why :) 

Yes, it feels nice to see the numbers going down again, but what is even better is the last two months I was not stressing that I wasn't losing, I just accepted it, and that made things much better for me mentally to not be so hard on myself. I thought 130 might not be possible, but now, I'm thinking I might be able to get there, or...gasp...even lower?  

I probably made it harder on myself by being so focused on why my efforts weren't producing any results. I was being faithful in my eating... and not so much in my exercise... and once I took my eyes off the eating...and back to an every other day gym routine... the scale started to move down again. HA! Took me awhile...but I'm getting it!!! 130? How tall are you! You look tall in the picture above. But that can be deceiving. I am 5'6" - and not sure but think 135 is the lowest I will go. I would be very, very comfortable there. Not 'skinny' - but slender. Clothes won't be tight...rolls won't be hanging off anywhere... you know... just right for me. :) Looking forward to it really! It's been a long year! 

I'm short...5 ft 2 inches. I like seeing the number on the scale go down, but even if the number stays where it is, if I lose that last bit of pudgyness around my mid section, the number on the scale won't matter. Maybe that's why I wasn't so stressed. I haven't lost much weight in the last two months but I did lose inches on my hips so that is a different measure of progress. And once again, all of my newer clothing is starting to get baggy again. I really doubt I can get lower than 120 and that seems like a fantasy number anyhow. The lowest I recall being on Atkins was 133. I'm not far from that now.. I'm just waiting for my mid section to stop looking jiggly. :) I still have a little muffin top that needs to go bye bye.  

And yes, It has been a long year! But a very productive year and progress has been made! 

The more I read about people who exercise - cardio or weights - the more I realize that ultimate NUMBER on the scale is going to be different than when we might have been 'thin' without exercise. Back in the day (well, a few days in my life, but not many) I was once 135. But I wasn't that in shape, or fit at the time. So if my theory holds true. I might just stay above 140 - but feel the same, and look the same as I once did at 135. If that happens...great! I don't care about the number anymore. I do care about the jiggly :) And that is what I too am working towards changing!!!