Deliriou5's Journal, 17 August 2022

I have been on again, off again so many times. Now my health has finally caught up to me and if I want to live I must get the weight off. I’m looking into bariatric surgery (the sleeve) per my doctors pleas. The diabetes is killing me so I don’t think I have any other option really. I don’t want to screw up like I did last time. A few years back I dropped about 147 lbs and gained all but 15lbs of it back. But after the last conversation with my doctor on 7/22 I think I’m finally back on track and in a good place before discussing the surgery. I’ve lost 21lbs since then by eating a low carb diet and keeping around 2000 calories. (Juts like before.). I’m re-learning a lot that goes with it and frankly I hate it. All I want to do is run to a big fat cake with lots of frosting. I’m praying I can do it again and this time keep it off despite a screw up or celebration.
397.5 lb Lost so far: 13.5 lb.    Still to go: 177.5 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

Diet Calendar Entry for 17 August 2022:
1515 kcal Fat: 70.06g | Prot: 162.56g | Carb: 82.06g.   Lunch: No Sugar Company Keto Bar, John Soules Foods Chicken Fajita Breast Strips, Peach, Kroger CARBmaster Peach Yogurt. Dinner: Kroger Spreadable Butter , Broccoli , King Soopers Cottage Cheese 4% milk fat, Kroger Ribeye Steak. more...
losing 6.2 lb a week

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It’s hard when you have a lot of weight to lose. I realized this time when I started trying to lose weight that I just eat my feelings, I have done it my entire life. Over the past year and a half I have continued to lose weight and sometimes I will gain a few pounds back but in the long run I know I will hit the goal I want. But what helps me the most when I feel overwhelmed and want to eat something really bad-not because I’m hungry or craving it but just because I’m over stressed, tired or anxious, is just to say “I want to eat my feelings right now”. By just saying that out loud just mentally helps me release my emotions or whatever is going inside of me at that time and I no longer want to eat the bad stuff. I say it alone and sometimes I say it in front of others depending on the situation, but it needs to be said out loud so you can verbalize how you feel at that moment. Try it next time you feel the urge to binge or eat something you know you shouldn’t. I hope this helps you some. I was anorexic in my teens and in college, then once I had my son I ate everything from stress. So I have been fighting these demons for over 30 years, saying that out loud is the ONLY thing that has kept me on track this time. Good luck!! 
17 Aug 22 by member: Jessrob
I'm in a similar position with type 2 diabetes and I am not going to fail and I don't want you to even think it is a possibility for you either. You won't always be perfect but you will always be headed in the right direction over all.  
17 Aug 22 by member: -MorticiaAddams
Do you have any friends who are in it with you? A partner in crime to make dinner with is always nice. Sending you strength 💪 💛  
17 Aug 22 by member: JC_suburbangothcatmom
Feel you. This is my second time. Determined to make it last this time. Stay strong👏👍💪💪💪 
17 Aug 22 by member: ginome
@JC_suburbangothcatmom. This time I actually may have some support that I didn’t have last time. My brother (long after I initially lost all that weight) got gastric bypass and has since regained a lot of that weight back. How someone can do that with a stomach the size of an egg is beyond me. But….he seems to be more open to working with me than he was before he had his own surgery.  
17 Aug 22 by member: Deliriou5
Good luck.  
18 Aug 22 by member: Kenna Morton
You’re welcome, Laurita! It has helped me so much to be able to verbalize something is wrong-half the time what’s wrong is just life in general, but either way it has given me control over myself and my unhealthy habits. I don’t have to stuff myself because I’m upset, I have to acknowledge that I’m upset and it passes. Wish I would have done this decades ago.  
18 Aug 22 by member: Jessrob
Delirio5 I'm glad to hear your bro is in your corner. And you know we all are too! Have a wonderful day 😊  
18 Aug 22 by member: JC_suburbangothcatmom
Your health is at stake and you have taken 1st step forward! It helps to learn to make smaller, attainable goals, plan meals prep snacks, log everything, and you will succeed! You will get lots of advice and support here on FS so keep posting! You can do this!!👍  
18 Aug 22 by member: Diana 1234
Welcome back. No need to worry as you have done the weight loss before. Stay strong. 
18 Aug 22 by member: sugarplum_
One day at a time, one meal at a time, but only when your head is in the right place, as you know. I’ve only learned relatively recently that stress and lack of sleep can interfere with the hormones that affect hunger and satiety. So it’s not always about lack of willpower! Glad you’re back and in control. Sending lots of positive energy your way! 
18 Aug 22 by member: RhumbaGirl

     
 

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