Pterath's Journal, 30 August 2015

Slept better 8+ hrs (Melatonin and valerian), then got up and walked 2 miles this morning. I felt like I was pushing myself to do that. 0% chance of rain it says and I am walking and it starts sprinkling. SMH I am hoping these few clouds blow over and then I can paint like I wanted to in a bit. But I am exhausted and it will be 90s on Wednesday and I do not fair well in the heat. Better to paint today if I can. I know half of my exhaustion is emotional like I am vibrating on the inside trying to get through everything I need to without faltering. Today is improved but even the walk did not give me my usual burst of energy. That is the emotional drain. Terrible way to feel but I am fighting it every step. The need for normalcy to return is more pitched than ever and would greatly aid in emotional and physical stability. I feel like I could crawl back into bed for the remainder of the day right now. If only I could. *sighs* Seriously in need of a zen day.


Better to do list than I could come up with for today:

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1408 kcal

Fat: 102.59g | Prot: 85.90g | Carb: 52.61g.   Breakfast: Member's Mark Omega 3 Fish Oil (1000 mg), Great Value Bottled Water, Atkins Mocha Latte Shake, Centrum Multivitamin/Multimineral Supplement. Lunch: Great Value All Natural Pizza Sauce, Market Pantry Finely Shredded Mexican Style Four-cheese Blend Cheese, Great Value Bottled Water, Benefiber Fiber Supplement, La Tortilla Factory Whole Wheat Low Carb High Fiber Tortillas, Hormel Original Pepperoni Slices. Dinner: naked fried green tomatoes, Pork Chop. Snacks/Other: Dreyer's Outshine Fruit Bars No Sugar Added, Laughing Cow Mini Babybel Light Cheese, Peanut Butter Fat Bombs SIMPLE. more...

5789 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Walking (moderate) - 3/mph - 45 minutes, Showering - 20 minutes, Cooking - 45 minutes, Watching TV/Computer - 3 hours, Cleaning - 1 hour, Sleeping - 8 hours, Resting - 2 hours and 40 minutes, Painting - 7 hours and 30 minutes. more...