ppphhhttt's Journal, 04 July 2012

Worked late at new job last night and did not workout. I could have, I had the time, but I just didn't want to. I wanted to come home and rest...not have to jump right into something else then go straight to bed. I feel worn out. I know a lot of it has to do with not getting enough sleep and if I was fully rested, I would feel like taking on the world.

Woke up this morning with a headache (again) and my face swollen. I ate some beef jerky yesterday and that's the only thing I can figure that is causing this...and my low water intake. I have about 45 minutes before I have to shower and get going to meet my friends for the movie then lunch. I need to eat before I leave cause we won't be eating till about 2ish....which is 6 hours away. But I don't feel like cooking. I don't feel like getting a shower. I feel like crying. Why? No clue.

But I know once I pick up my bestie (T) and meet M, I will be having a great time with them. So why the 'funk' feeling now? Maybe I will promise myself a nap this afternoon...if I can fall asleep. I'm sure there will be daytime fireworks going off too. UGH!

I need a massage. To work the tension and stiffness out of my shoulders and neck. And for some human contact. That always calms me. Why as humans do we avoid touching each other? I mean, even a hug is awkward for most and it's this kind of contact that helps us all feel connected, alive and loved. Without it we can wither emotionally...like I am. I will give T and M a hug today for sure! And I know it will make M feel awkward...he's very private and not-touchy. But I don't care. I like him and a hug is appropriate. :-)