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I’m so nervous for the holidays. I finally got my leave chit approved and I start leave tomorrow, but my husband gets back from fast cruise in a couple days so I have to wait until he’s home to fly to the west coast to see his family for Christmas. His family doesn’t know about my ptsd and eating disorder. It’s just like last year... and the year before that... when I got off of deployment from the Reagan, I gained so much weight. We always pulled back in homeport around the holidays. Oh. I forgot to mention...His father is a chef. Like. Come on.
HIS LIFE REVOLVES AROUND FOOD.
I KNOW he’s gonna be cooking some good food when we get there... I can’t stop thinking about the calories and carbs and fat. I’m having bad anxiety about it. It’s like, I can’t be rude and not eat his food.
(keep in mind this is MY phone, MY personal journal for MY journey, I don’t need anyone to try and lecture me about my diagnoses. if you don’t like it just ignore it or if possible block me)
Diet Calendar Entry for 14 December 2017:
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298 kcal
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Fat: 15.46g | Prot: 15.01g | Carb: 24.46g.
Breakfast: Snyder's of Hanover Mini Pretzels. Lunch: Better Valu Whole Kernel Corn, Dole Mandarin Oranges in 100% Fruit Juice. Snacks/Other: Scrambled Egg . more...
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