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I've been through a really hard time. I've been at my lowest point in life where I just felt I was at the breaking point. How much pain can one person endure? I've kept a journal of sorts, and I finally reached out to let people know i was hurting. I was disappointed in some, but overall I believe people were supportive and loving. I feel strength building and I believe it's their prayers. I'm so thankful.
I've come to some decisions, and I'm seriously considering more. I'm saying a final good-bye to Darrell in a letter, and I'm breaking up with Eric. I need to be alone. I need to relearn me. I'm considering changing my name. When I move, I'm considering cutting off my mom and dad. Also, I think I'm finished with organised religion - and that scares me. I'm going to work on self-improvement thru education. I plan to make FB less prominent by only checking before bed. That should save an enormous amount of time. And I'm cautiously starting over on a healthy lifestyle.
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187.0 lb
Lost so far: 13.0 lb.
Still to go: 37.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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Diet Calendar Entries for 11 December 2017:
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1411 kcal
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Fat: 94.03g | Prot: 88.28g | Carb: 47.10g.
Breakfast: Tater Tots, Kraft American Cheese Slice, McDonald's Sausage Burrito (No Tortilla), Onions, Tomatoes, Frigo Cheese Heads Mozzarella & Cheddar String Swirls. Lunch: Sargento Sharp Cheddar Snacks Cheese Sticks, Moe's Southwest Grill Pico De Gallo (Cup), Hass Avocado, Steamed or Boiled Shrimp. Dinner: Baked or Fried Coated Chicken Thigh with Skin (Skin/Coating Eaten). Snacks/Other: Hormel Pizza Toppings Pepperoni, Frigo Cheese Heads Mozzarella & Cheddar String Swirls. more...
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gaining 1.1 lb a week
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