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It is probably obvious that I was in a very bad mood earlier. I was very disappointed because today I finished Hammer and Chisel, and it's stats day. Instead of having lost nearly 6 pounds in the past 8 weeks, I suddenly had lost less than 4.
I was depressed for like a half hour, then I got dressed and got to it. Hard. While working on being beastly, I had time to think. I was so disappointed in myself for putting on over 2 pounds in a week that I remembered as being a decent week. However, among other more minor slip ups (too much fat, overeating plan food), I was very hungover on Sunday and hardly ate at all, and what I did eat was NOT on plan. I'm also wrapping up sharkweek in the next day or so, so there is likely some water there. I've also been dealing with insomnia still. For instance today I woke up at 3:30, and only dozed off and on until 5ish when I decided to just get up. I am not trying to make excuses, I am coming clean about the reasons I am responsible for this.
I'm in this last 20 (now 23) pounds, and I feel like have been for months. It is so discouraging to see a gain at this point in the game. My husband wonders if I am too focused on this arbitrary 160 I have my eyes on. In general, this is the happiest I have ever been with my body, especially after H&C. I feel so strong, I love being able to see and feel my muscles. But it is not enough for me. I want to get to where I am not overweight anymore (164), and I do not think that's a bad thing, even if it just a BMI calculation.
Part of me wants to put off stats day to next week, so at least any bloat will be gone. I don't know, though. Thanks for letting me vent! Keep going!
Rest day tomorrow, then Round 2 of Shaun Week on Monday! 😍
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