Aaleigha1's Journal, 23 January 2012

That sounds great, H! Were you unable to plan your food because you ate in town this weekend? If not, would it be possible to pre-plan your meals for Sat and Sun on Fridays? That is what I am going to try this Friday. Ben comes over, and we tend to want to eat poorly together, end up overdoing it.  

to be honest it was laziness and a bit of rebellion but I will log much better the coming weekend when I did the lasagne and the bake we did eat I even spent time on mfp putting them in the recipe section  

Ah, I see. I was thinking--we could try weighing in on Fridays. You had beautiful weigh ins all week, right up until those last 2 days. Even though our big focus is not on the scale but on how we improve our eating behaviors, you still deserve to see the weigh-ins you've rightfully earned. Doesn't do us any good if weighing in right after the weekend is discouraging as well as inaccurate, and lately especially your Monday weigh-ins haven't been at all accurate. Might want to consider it. :) 

You can eat the food or let the food eat you. What's best?  

Tania and Rachel than you I have had a day where I have deliberately skipped a meal to prove to myself that I can handle hunger and nothing bad will happen to me - I have been eating just because - I know I am going through a very stressful time and the emotions seem to dictate my relationship with food but today so far I am on track I have eaten what I have planned and feel more in control I just need to keep telling myself I am good at this and I dont need to eat chocolate or cakes - these things arent even in the house I go out to buy them - that is so sad  

Same here. I don't keep trigger foods in the house, so when I have bad days it's not even mindless noshing--the whole thing is premeditated, and there was definitely a plan and a lot of unplanned spending that went into yesterday and today. I didn't log it because i'm not even sure how much i ate, but I had Ben go out and buy Cheddar and Sour Cream Ruffles, tortilla chips and salsa, and a big ass bag of almond M&Ms--none of which was previously in the house. He asks me, "Rachel, is this on your plan?..." Erm, of course honey. Here's the cash--take my car-- see ya in a bit. .. So pathetic.. Now just gotta forgive ourselves and do it right starting now and keep taking it 1 day at a time. Hopefully we did less damage than we think.  

at least I went and got my own food :):) tell Ben when it is a good day that he is not to get you stuff that he cant see on your plan on mfp IF he doesnt get it for you and you REALLY need it go get it yourself that will give you several points to THINK - one the getting in the car and two the picking up of the items at least and if you have to cue that again will mean you have time to think  

That's a great idea. I will do that today. He knows about MFP and everything. I told him he's a food enabler. =P  

Rachel better than being a feeder  

What's a feeder? 

A feeder is someone who feeds or gets foods for you to deliberately make you put on huge amounts of weight - its how people become super morbidly obese - many of them can hardly get out of bed so today is saturday and I have been to Banbury (about an hour and a half away) and I walked around that town and bought a few bits from thrift stores - one amazing skirt and a couple of books weigh in this morning was only 0.1 down on yesterday but that is good natural fluctuations or not I am at least in full control again and that is so important to me right now 

Wow, the feeder thing is messed up.. Does explain how those 600+ pound people on the Discovery Channel got that way when they can't even get out of bed to get their own food. (Btw, I was just joking about Ben being an enabler. My food issues are my own. Not blaming him at all.) Awesome find with the amazing skirt and books!! Super happy to hear you are in full control again. :) For the past few days I have been up 5 pounds, though I know I didn't eat enough to even gain more than 1, so I'm waiting to...*ahem*.. clear out. I don't mind not showing any loss on the scale come Monday. Refusing to be disappointed about that anymore and also am still very into taking the plan 1 day at a time, being more focused on the healthy behavior than the actual loss, putting in time and effort into practicing and perfecting dieting just like practicing knitting, so this is good. 

I feel the same about weigh in now- I have got over my its not fair bit and realise it will happen at some point and I may just have to cut back further and that could be right for me - the amount of meds I am on it wouldnt surprise me and as long as I get adequate protein and take multi vit and mineral health wise I will be fine