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I just realized that my current weight is the lowest since 2012. That's 4 years. Not that I had any major weight fluctuations but still, I find it pretty amazing, sad and motivating at the same time.
It's been 4 years of life changing events. Moving to another city, starting college, having several emotional breakdowns due to mom's health issues, see my parents getting divorced and my mother behave more absurd than ever,not being happy with myself, struggling with anxiety, making poor decisions regarding my nutrition as food was (and sadly still is) my comfort, wasted so much energy comparing myself to others, many disappointments.. I scrapped the book and started all over way too many times, until now.
Now, I can only be grateful and stronger than before. I'm about to graduate soon, I finally found a company to start my internship in May with some good chances of getting a regular job there, I battle my insecurities and I try to develop myself in every possible way. I am in a stable relationship, I'm probably not the best partner, but I try each and every day to learn from my mistakes.
I seriously don't know how I ended up writing all this stuff, I just wanted a quick post and..what the heck!!
Wish you all the best buddies.. I know that most of you don't celebrate Easter these days, but I want you to remember that the secret, is to REALLY begin.
Take care!
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wow! keep hangin in there, sounds like things are getting better
24 Apr 16 by member: 8hunter6
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Beginnings, the start of becoming because none of us truly are. Not yet, nor shall we ever be, it's always a state of transition, we hit one goal only to find the goal posts have moved because in the act of achieving those goals we've become something different. And the cycle continually renews, we aren't who we were yesterday or who we will be tomorrow, fleeting, every last bit of it, transcendent, which is why it's important to always remember to consider today, perhaps not as we would like it to be or even if it is exactly the ideal, it's will be gone before the thought fully forms in your mind. Push forward with resolve, there's no going backward and static is an illusion!
24 Apr 16 by member: 1point21gigawatts
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24 Apr 16 by member: panmarchip
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philmck, I find your words very wise and inspiring, you couldn't have said it better. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
24 Apr 16 by member: panmarchip
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Panmarchip sounds like things are finally stabilizing for you, congrats on finding internship.. I know getting accepted to one is a huge stress relief!
Also Phil, great words... I'm going to use that on my husband because he always dwells in our past (pre kids), thanks for those well thought out words!
24 Apr 16 by member: smartygirlCA
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It's easy to dwell on the past, and recognizing and respecting what's come before has it's place, but there's no future stuck back there. If your husband is having trouble letting go of the past it's because he has unresolved issues living there. The only way he can free himself of that is to identify and resolve those issues, if those issues have been identified and addressed and he's still having trouble letting go then he's going to have come to terms with whatever it is he's unable to let go of and learn to move past it, not easy, but definitely not insurmountable.
24 Apr 16 by member: 1point21gigawatts
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Panmarchip, i can understand how you feel. I have had several years of rocky situations. I have finally come to the conclusion that it is my time. I have to focus on getting this weight off of me, getting back into school (starting hopefully in August), moving to a new house, and quit trying to make a relationship work that doesnt look like its going anywhere. I have got to quit being so emotional. So our new motto should be WE GOT THIS.....
24 Apr 16 by member: NavymomT
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Dear Carmen, thank you for your comment. I do appreciate what I have and certainly given the circumstances in Greece, I feel blessed for having a chance to get a decent job in my field of interest. Hope everything goes well :)
As for my mother, I will keep supporting her as I did all these years, even if I disagree on many of the decisions she made about her personal life. I know I'm still young and that maybe I'll understand her better when I grow older, so until then, I can only wish for her to be happy, no matter my thoughts.
You have a happy Easter with your loved ones as well!! :)
25 Apr 16 by member: panmarchip
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