greycmay's Journal, 04 October 2009

wow i went all out this weekend. i had a really stressful week (3 exams) and i ended up talking myself into eating whatever i seen. bad me! the trigger was my husband baking brownies twice this week! i never bake, especially brownies because i know i will go crazy. i asked him not to bake them when i was home but he did anyway and said for me to just use some willpower. so i told myself he's right, he should be able to make brownies and enjoy them and i just won't eat any.......they smelled really yummy though, and that's were i talked myself into basically binging on food this weekend. in retrospect i feel really crummy and weak and i know i set myself back. i need to figure out how to keep my willpower even when something as addictive as brownies is waved under my nose.

Diet Calendar Entries for 04 October 2009:
541 kcal Fat: 39.08g | Prot: 34.46g | Carb: 11.93g.   Breakfast: eggs, center cut bacon, coffee mate, coffee, altern no calorie sweetener. Lunch: okra pickles, string cheese, almonds. more...
2291 kcal Activities & Exercise: Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 1 hour, Resting - 15 hours, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...

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PLease forgive me for feeling this way, but right about now I want to smack your husband for saying something so condescending and counterproductive to you, and on top of it all, he doesn't listen for what you asked for, and bakes the brownies anyway. If he wants brownies that bad, go get some-- out of the home! Why would he bake them right there with you, especially after you requested he didn't? Sabotage!!! I want you to think about this: if you were an alcoholic and asked he not have any alcohol in the home and he said "have some willpower," how ludricrous does that sound? How supportive is that in your "recovery?" Willpower is something learned over a long period of time. You can't take someone who has an unhealthy relationship with food and parade them around a buffet. It's asking for failure. I mean this in a most loving way possible, but you do need to ask for what you need for your health. If my husband would of done that, I would of thrown the pan out of the front door. No joke. I also will communicate it as clearly as possible. "Husband of mine who is my best friend, supporter, advocate, and helper-- please do not bake those brownies because I am not able to resist them and if I eat them in turn I will feel unworthy, undesireable, weak, defeated." Then I relate it to something he can understand, like him working really hard at his job fo rsomething, only to have someone sabotage it. Don't say "Bad Me." That isn't true! Don't belittle yourself- a creation of God. ;-) Hope the rest of your week is less stressful- and just think, you finished those exams! Woo hoo! 
12 Oct 09 by member: HalfJapFightingAbura
you know you are very right and thank you for the pep talk. i've tried explaining to him how people can have an unhealthy relationship w/ food and he just doesn't get it. he is very physically fit and has been blessed w/ genes that allow him to eat junk w/o gaining a lb. i would say he has been pretty supportive of my weight loss goals, but that whole brownie thing was a big slip up. but thank you again for backing me up:) 
16 Oct 09 by member: greycmay

     
 

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