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I did really well during our vacation in Chicago. I exercised almost everyday, and I came back feeling confident that I didn't gain any weight within those six days.
Something has been on my mind, though. I keep dreaming about my ex. I think something happened. I shouldn't care, but I want to find out if things are OK. I shouldn't care. This doesn't make sense that I have these long, elaborate dreams about meeting again. We fought a lot when we were together. We fight in my dreams too. And yet I have to stop myself from texting ARE YOU OK because it has been six years since we spoke... and it was not a good conversation. I ended up drunk, asleep on the couch in a club downtown, and I got kicked out of that club. Nice.
So why do I keep having these dreams? I'm so upset when I wake up from the dreams, too, like my subconscious is just gnawing at me to get in touch with someone who basically annihilated my life during the five years we were together. I shouldn't care. We've moved on with our lives, and I should be thankful I didn't spend more than five years being tormented and cheated on.
I need to concentrate on becoming physically healthier. Nevermind my ex. My ex probably doesn't even remember me, as the last words I heard were "Our marriage wasn't real." Oh. Is that why the Norwegian government keeps trying to make me pay taxes? Because according to them, we were married for a while. See, now I'm getting angry just thinking about it.
Sometimes I think I'm doing a lot to get my body healthier, but as for my mental well-being... I still have issues to iron out. I wish I could just be happy-go-lucky LOL
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