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Just..... didn't do it yesterday. Powered right through the day eating well, and then suddenly at supper felt sorry for myself and happy to see the wine and... It was so self defeating..
But I don't have to wallow in that. i just read this amazing essay in the New york Times by Vivian Gornick. Which made the point that she was so afraid of failing -- at her writing, in her relationships, in the way she looked -- she only half-tried at everything "To do any or all of these things well would have been to engage heedlessly with life - love it more than I loved my fears - and this could not do.What I could do apparently was daydream the years away: to go on yearning for 'things" to be different, so that I would be different."
Amazing. Gift handed to me. Quit yearning. Start living
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141.4 lb
Lost so far: 18.6 lb.
Still to go: 7.4 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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losing 4.2 lb a week
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WOW that is powerful. Yes I have felt that way often, like I was daydreaming my life away, always saying 'once this, that or the other thing happen, THEN I will be able to live my life' but that is self defeating and who knows, may never happen. So I now TRY to live in the NOW. I put TRY & NOW in caps because this is a new experience for me and I really need to focus on IT! Don't beat yourself up too much, sounds like you are doing well and are being mindful. Do you have OA in your area? They help me a lot, but I do have a long way to go!
27 Apr 15 by member: JMA312
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