Sasi, I have been where you are. My mom had breast cancer, my dad had prostate cancer, I have had cervical cancer, and right before dad died he had surgery for colon cancer...it was the worst kind he could have. I know EXACTLY where you are. My heart aches for you, my sweet friend. I wish I was with you so I could give you one of my hugs in person. Until the wedding, or the next time you are in town and come to visit us at ROC, this virtual one will have to do. I love you, and I am here if you need to talk...TALK to me, don't fall back into that carb pit. I have been there for almost 3 years and it is a desolate place and so very hard to climb out of. I am here for you, and always will be. <3 PS...as for the binge, eh, we all do it. Now time to try to control the emotional eating!