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feeling pretty positive today. didn't get to the gym because of a long nice at work. got a good bit done around the house to help make up for it. it has been really nice to start to see changes in my appearance and in the way my clothes are fitting me.
looked back on the old picture from when we first started all of this, I can really see a change in myself. I really wish I knew how long it has been since ive been at this weight. I know its been at least a few years because it wa long before I started keeping track of things.
looking forward to reaching the 250 mark soon. then I will be half way to my current goal. its strange to thing that I am really going to get there.
the thing that suprises me the most is just how easy this has been. I don't think I could go back to eating meat even if I wanted to, had to have been the easiest decision of my life. it has been about a year now since we made that change. ive always enjoied the feeling of being active and while I can admit I have those days where I cant talk myself into going to the gym having a clear goal has helped keep me focused.
the fit bit has been great and keeping me aware of what I am doing. it has made the process so much easier. no excuses.
I feel like im at the point now where I am trying to imagine what it is that I might look like once ive lost the full 100. I have no way to know for sure. im excited to earn the chance to find out.
I worry weither or not Amanda will be able to stick with things. so far she has done wonderfully but it has been a lot harder for her to keep focused. I cant help but default to the thought that if she isn't healthy then what is the point of me being better. the way I feel now tells me that I would never fall back to where I was but I worry that if I continued and she gave up that she might start to resent me for it.
weight is only the first step in this. and there is a whole lot underneath it.
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