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I really started the Fat Smash Diet yesterday. I weighed in at 265.6! Which is a pound and a half more than when I got married (264 lbs.). When I met my husband, I was 215 lbs. My goal is to first get to 230 and work from there. I remember my husband telling me that his ex was 250 and I said DAMN that is a BIG GIRL! Look at me now....15 lbs. heavier than her!!! AND....I am not at my heaviest. Back in 2007 I was 289!!! That was my highest weight, minus my twin pregnancy at 317!!!! CRAZY!!! Needless to say, I am ready to say GOODBYE to ALL THESE HIGH NUMBERS! I would be happiest if I could break 200 and finally see "1 ANYTHING". I would be thrilled to see 199!!! I can only hope I have the willpower to see this through. I think I have more willpower than ever because of my twins. I look in the mirror and I am so DISGUSTED with myself. I am ENORMOUS!!! What is worse is my reflection in my window when I am sitting on my bed. I never really realized how FAT I was until I saw that reflection and couldn't believe it was ME! Because I have no full length mirrors in my house, I truly had a gross misconception of myself. I see a pretty face and I leave it at that. I figure, my expensive jewelry and expensive handbags...stilettos...make up for how fat I am. So instead of people looking at a FAT GIRL....they see a FAT CLASSY GIRL who must be living lovely. Well...that IS NOT the case. I am so unhappy in this FAT SUIT! I just want to unzip it and have the real me come out. But in reality I know I have to work hard at this. I said last night I was going to do the stairs (an exercise you can do at home if you don't have a gym membership, but want to burn some calories). I didn't do it and I am bummed about it today. As soon as I get home I am doing it! Up and down my stairs 10 times in a 30 minute period. They say at least a 10 step minimum, with a 30 or 40 second break after ever time you go up and down once so you don't overdo it. I am curious to see how out of shape I am. Well....this is going to be tough! But I am up for it! I have to do it for the boys! I AM 40 WITH TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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265.0 lb
Lost so far: 0 lb.
Still to go: 66.0 lb.
Diet followed reasonably well.
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