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As of this morning, I was down another .4 pounds. Of course I only allow myself to log on Mondays in hopes of refraining from weighing myself obsessively. I had no exercise whatsoever yesterday. Loserville, right here! By the time I got home from work, our hot water lines had frozen again!!! On top of my husband insisting that I not proceed to run in -22 with wind chill weather, I realized that if I did partake in much cardio I would be stuck with my stinky, sweaty self through today at work. Sponge baths don't really do the job. I'm told that it will likely freeze again tonight. Wonderful. Two days without a hot shower or long bath. Yes, I know, First World Problems.
Must be the weather, but I find myself wanting to curl up in bed with an electic blanket, watching entire seasons of Dexter while eating whatever comfort food I can find. The employment/career thing is really putting a damper on how I'd prefer to spend my day. I went home for lunch briefly...or maybe not so briefly. My husband had fixed me 4 oz of chicken breast (buffalo style) with raw carrots and celery. It was delicious. But, after I finished it I still felt excessively hungry. I downed 32 ounces of water and waited a bit longer. Yep, still hungry. So, I ate 1/4 cup of cashews. Nuts are usually filling. Nope, still hungry. Tried sugar-free jello. Didn't do the trick. I wanted substance. So, I gave in and ate a bowl of warm oatmeal. I downed another 32 ounces of water afterwards. Now, if I were truly listening to my body and eating mindfully, I would have realized that it wasn't necessary for me to grab a bag of microwave popcorn to eat in its entirety in the 15 minute drive back to my office.
I'm still within my RDI for the day with my planned dinner (I plugged that in early to make sure I wasn't going over today), but I'm not real happy about the 84 extra carbohydrates that I really didn't need or my complete lack of self-control. Work is slow at the moment (as usual from November through February). Boredom, cold, sleepy, frustrated...all of these emotions that are okay to feel. Instead, I elected for a quick fix of carbs to lead to temporary comfort and distraction. I've not set out what my New Years Resolution for 2014 will be. I have picked a few goals: complete a marathon, scuba certification, rugged maniac mud run. But, I haven't really declared what I've resolved to do with myself. So here goes: In 2014, I am resolving to feel. Sounds simple, right? But I think I've spent most of my life doing things to avoid feeling one way or another. I've done the exact same thing that I did today my entire life in trying to "unfeel" anything that is uncomfortable. Cold? Eat something warm. Unhappy? Go on a shopping spree and blow money on things you really don't need. For me, eating has been the primary tool I've used to "unfeel" as it usually gives a quick result whether it be warm oatmeal in my stomach or the rush of sugar through my veins from a soda pop. Shopping is a close second. It has taken my entire life to realize that "feeling" is part of being human. It reminds you that you are still alive. So, with every emotion, I am going to try in 2014 to embrace it as part of the natural ebb and flow of being. After all, how can I really know I am happy if I don't experience sadness. Hopefully, this new approach will help me cease self-medicating with food (and shopping). We will see. I am a work in progress.
2MC
Diet Calendar Entries for 07 January 2014:
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1553 kcal
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Fat: 74.14g | Prot: 120.02g | Carb: 138.67g.
Breakfast: Lewis Bakeries Healthy Life Whole Wheat Whole Grain Flaxseed Bread, Nutiva Organic Extra Virgin Coconut Oil, Swiss Miss Sensible Sweets Diet Hot Cocoa Mix, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original, Egg, Private Selection Hand Crafted Provolone Cheese, Sara Lee Virginia Brand Ham. Lunch: Baby Carrots, Celery, Hidden Valley Fat Free Ranch Dressing, Treasure Cave Reduced Fat Crumbled Blue Cheese, Frank's Red Hot Sauce, Omaha Steaks Chicken Breast. Dinner: Treasure Cave Reduced Fat Crumbled Blue Cheese, Bertolli Marinara Sauce, Oscar Mayer Real Bacon Bits, Spinach, Portabella Mushrooms, Kraft Fat Free Shredded Mozzarella Cheese, Mushrooms, Honeysuckle White 99% Fat Free Extra Lean Ground Turkey Breast, Nasoya Pasta Zero Plus. Snacks/Other: Ann's House of Nuts Deluxe Mixed Nuts, Jell-O Sugar Free Black Cherry, j. Higgs j. higgs butter microwave popcorn, Great Value Maple & Brown Sugar Instant Oatmeal, Sargento Light Mozzarella String Cheese, Trader Joe's Roasted & Unsalted Cashew Pieces. more...
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LOL, I agree, work and earning a living get in the way of life sometimes… I like the resolution, makes a lot of sense and seems like you thought it through.
I have found that if I eat every 3 hours (snacks between meals) that my craving go away. I also struggled with waiting to long between meals than loading up without ever feeling satisified. I've read that when you eat every 3 hours it stabilizes your blood sugar lowering cravings.
Breakfast before work maybe an apple after a couple hours than a lunch then maybe a yogurt before leaving, dinner, than maybe some sort of a snack a couple of hours after that.
Good luck, loved the post!
07 Jan 14 by member: Tim Huffman
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Thank you. I do generally try to snack in between breakfast, lunch and then before I leave work. But, I wasn't able to do that this morning. Maybe that was what set off my seemingly insatiable appetite.
07 Jan 14 by member: 2ManyCurves
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I think this cold weather is putting cramps in a lot of people's diet style. (mine for sure!) I am sooo hungry lately! Plus I haven't been getting out to swim after work because the extreme cold around here actually creates some dangerous conditions and is wreaking havoc on the power steering functionality of my car. I definitely thought hard about using a sick day today or yesterday... but forced myself to go into work anyway.
07 Jan 14 by member: megmonster
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First of all my dear you are NOT a loser! So you didn't get any formal exercise yesterday. Even God took a day off. ;) Exercise does not have to be formal like running or working out in a gym. Get creative.
I went on vacation cross country last spring and LOST 2 pounds. 9 hours a day in the car did not make it easy. I got very creative. While riding I bounced my knees. I conducted to the music on the radio. And I took my elastic band to do some mild strength training. When ever we stopped I ran around the car three times before running into the bathroom. I even played frisbee in the parking lot with my teen aged boys. Nothing formal about it. Just plain fun silliness.
Don't deny your body the fat it needs. Our problem when we diet is we think all fat is bad. Our body needs fat. It just doesn't need very much of it.
Keep going and remember today is a new day. Start over. Jenny Craig says, "Progress NOT Perfection".
07 Jan 14 by member: DeidreR
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I have that same problem sometimes. Picking and picking and picking but nothing satisfies. Good job starting with the water and healthy foods at least :)
07 Jan 14 by member: ghenne04
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WOW! I come to FS for support, to learn how my buddies are doing, and to get a ton of info... I had no idea I could come here for philosophy too!!! One-stop-shop! But seriously, 2MC, you raise a REALLY GREAT point, and it is a way of looking at my obsession that I had not really considered before. But you are so right. Although for me, I think it is a bit more to fill something *missing* in my life. Something to plug the hole -- even if that hole is just boredom. Anyway, I think your resolution is a great one! Aim not for the symptom, but the source of the problem. Perfect!
07 Jan 14 by member: Rob.c.weiss
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