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The endless rollercoaster. I try, I fail, my weight goes up, I get depressed, I eat and my weight goes up some more. I have a moment of "I can do this", I try and again I fail. I am so tired of being on this ride that is going in circles. For me it's not as easy for most to just eat right an exercise 5 days a week. I have PCOS and my body does not respond like others' do. I have tried taking supplements to help me lose weight and I find that they make me GAIN weight. My weight has been a factor is all of my adult life, even to where it effected my military career. I need to get my weight under control so that I can go back to that military career that I love. I am praying that once I get my weight where I want it that I wont have to work AS hard to keep it there. This struggle is something I face every day of my life and I need to find something that works. I get more depressed when I see people around me losing weight and getting fit with little to no effort and it doesn't work that way for me. I get so frustrated and depressed about it that I just want to lay in my bed and cry. My husband sees the outer struggle I go through and is as supportive as he can be but he doesn't see the inner struggle. My PCOS is not just about my weight, it's about our family. It is hard for others to know exactly how hard the struggle really is unless they have the same struggle. I look for encouragement from everyone but if anyone who is reading this has PCOS and you have found something that works please share, I am getting desperate.
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