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MY 60-DAY LIQUID FAST
Counting Down To My Slim Down
Day 52/60
COMPULSION
An irresistible persistent impulse to perform an act.
Related Words: arm-twisting, coercion, force, constraint, duress
Psychology Terms: anxiety, conscience, hypochondria, mania, narcissism, neurosis, pathological, phobia, psychosis
I have a Food Compulsion.
It's getting to that point where my mind is starting to play tricks on me. I can clearly see my body shrinking but I keeping thinking that I'll never be able to lose weight. All the times I have tried and failed are an indication that I am supposed to be this size. All the people that have had success are just luckier than me. I lose 1 pound and it makes me feel defeated. Isn't that a kind of madness?
A few months ago I would have loved to have lost 1 pound. I think the smell of food is getting to me a bit today. I typically feel really strong and focused but I am sooooo weak. I want to sink into a Big Mac badly. This protein shake that typically fills me up and takes my mind off of food is not working its magic today.
I will not go to McD's of course. I just like to admit the weakness exists and probably always will. This is just a testament of how badly I need to change. My food addiction will be overcome and I will learn to manage these cravings.
Diet Calendar Entry for 09 December 2010:
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308 kcal
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Fat: 17.78g | Prot: 19.94g | Carb: 18.67g.
Breakfast: Half and Half, Fish Oil Pills, Splenda, Lipton Black Tea Bags. Lunch: EAS. Snacks/Other: Water, Espresso. more...
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