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Rode 10 miles in 67 min today. I weighed in this morning and have been going slowly backwards this week. Jeff has been quitting smoking so his eating habits have rubbed off on me. I stick to my vegan breakfast and usually lunch, but he met me at work for lunch today and I did a grilled chicken salad with ranch dressing. I got home and finished off some of last nights leftover shrimp fettuccine. I keep telling myself that I'm not eating that much, that I'm building muscle instead of fat, but the numbers don't lie. I've gone over my calories every day, and I'm not active other than bike riding. I try to be as honest on my food journal as I can, even rounding up for good measure so I'm not fooling myself into thinking I'm sticking so closely to the limits. I don't say its one tablespoon of ranch when I know damn good and well it was more like 4. I watch how frustrated Jeff gets trying to not smoke, and he gets even more frustrated when he needs a food fix to curb the desire to smoke and I'm all like "I cant eat meat, sugar, salt, fat, bread, or anything you want right now". I know I need to worry about my health, but I tell him I will eat meat and bread every day if he doesn't smoke a cigarette. I care more about him quitting than I do about my eating habits right now... but I feel damn miserable about gaining weight.
Diet Calendar Entries for 24 September 2013:
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2342 kcal
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Fat: 116.00g | Prot: 84.53g | Carb: 245.29g.
Breakfast: Chocolate Cupcake with Icing or Filling, R.W. Knudsen Family Just Tart Cherry Juice, Freshly Squeezed Orange Juice, Bananas. Lunch: Deep Fried Potato French Fries (from Frozen), Hidden Valley Buttermilk Ranch Dressing, Sheetz Grilled Chicken Salad with Cheese & Croutons, Date. Dinner: Lloyd's Barbeque Company Baby Back Pork Ribs with Original BBQ Sauce, Romano's Macaroni Grill Fettuccine Alfredo with Shrimp. more...
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3813 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Bicycling (slow) - 11/mph - 1 hour and 7 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 4 hours and 3 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours, Sitting - 2 hours, Driving - 50 minutes. more...
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Hang on....why do you have to eat when he wants to eat? And if he wants to eat, let him eat, when he wants, what he wants. If you are not hungry: tell him. Prepare food for him & let him eat it. I understand how much him not smoking means to you (being an ex-smoker myself) but if I had forced my urges onto people close to me...they would have soon run a mile. Buy him some chewing gum, start play fighting with him, go for a walk when he wants to smoke. The urge will pass quicker than you think. :)
25 Sep 13 by member: schmetterling34
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Ya, I hear what you are saying. I know I need to control my own food urges. My biggest vice for everything all my life was food, and still is. There are so many other factors playing here than what I've said, mostly boring details, but there are issues with being able to keep food I can eat and food he can eat in stock. The raw vegan lifestyle requires LOTS of fresh everything and we just have no room. I try to buy what I can and keep food in stock, but fresh food rots in bulk. Half the freezer is figs, dates, and nuts and the other half is his meat and ice trays. When you open the frige door all my tomatoes and fruits come rolling out and there isnt even room for his milk most the time. He gets soooo frustrated. It was fine when I lived alone, but now he moved in. Its like Jekyl and Hyde. He supports me whole hartedly for doing the vegan thing, but goes ape-shit over the fruit flies all over the house, and the bags of dates that fall out every time he gets ice. Then when I get home and he's cooking or asking to have a particular thing for dinner, I have to just go along with it because his temper has been horrible with the smoking thing. He fixes meals like he is cooking for a family of 10. I get on him alllll the time about how he over purchases items at the gorcery store. Why do two people need 2 large cans of beans for one meal? When he shops he buys for ONE meal, but its enough to eat the entire week. And he cooks it all in one day. So now we have no room to store leftovers, I feel obligated to eat because he bought too much food. He quit his job to move down here and hasn't found work yet, and I can't sit back and let money get thrown away. Im just venting... I dont know what to do. I try to tell him he needs to portion himself, but its like talking to a tree stump sometimes.
25 Sep 13 by member: Vickiauntmick
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