GlennM's Journal, 01 October 2010

Hi Glenn, I am hoping this statement I am about to write will help you with these negative people in your life as it has helped me. When most of us were children and afraid of the dark we would turn on the light and we felt better. Negative energy is like darkness. When you encounter negative people, turn on the light. When a negative person comes at you with fear, negativity, hate and anger, respond with love, kindness and positive energy. I am not saying this is easy but it can be a fun challenge if you accept it as so. It is easier when you live among people who are more positive in life but sometimes that is not the place we are living in so perhaps you can set an example and show them how to spread positive energy, with a simple smile or kind words. Courageous kindness is contagious. Best wishes...Aloha for now. TOWANDA!!!!  

It is easy to love the people far away. It is not always easy to love those close to us. It is easier to give a cup of rice to relieve hunger than to relieve the loneliness and pain of someone unloved in our own home. Bring love into your home for this is where our love for each other must start. -- Mother Teresa :) Smile my friend. 

Thanks Lisa Online and OE - Lisa I have been putting off moving, and there is no need to do it. I will lose a lousy $425 a MONTH income if I move. It's a lot of money to me as I am low income and this money is sort of guaranteed to me if I stay here - it's a long story. But that money can be made up if I move and am happier and after this winter am no longer in cold weather. My younger sister hasn't talked with me in over three years. My twin sister I haven't seen since Christmas, and my mother sixteen months since I've seen her, I have no car. And so moving isn't something terrible, I know I will have a social life there that is nonexistent here because there's nowhere to go and nothing to do here. I'm tired of being around miserable people and am ready to go, I think Marge and Ted are leaving for the same reason in late October the people in my building are a nasty lot. OE - no one is in my home, I have lived basically on my own since age 19, but understand that I am tired of dealing with rude people... 

Added note - if I move I can go to night school at a community college once I am a resident of Hawaii after a year, I can't do that here because I have no car and don't drive, another reason to leave for good... 

Oh my Glenn, what happened all of a sudden? You seemed fine the other day and writing up a storm and dealing with your neighbors/friends. Now I hear a lot of anger. Someone said or did something to you, right? I'm so sorry to hear you in this frame of mind. Soon, Glenn, soon you will be where you want to be. Keep away from these negative people. Just smile at them, nod, and keep walking. Just don't hold a conversation if it is going to upset you. I'm so sorry you are upset. You have been so "UP" for quite a while. You need to get back to that nice space you were in. My best wishes in this for you my friend.  

Yes, NN, a good friend has been getting dumped on at worked so let me have it, which is unnecessary. I guess it is human nature to put others down. My mom does it all the time in a sarcastic tone without realizing it. I also live in a large building with many negative people and they toss out garbage. There is so much idle gossip here and believe me, I know way more than I want, yet today realized my reputation is not as trashed as I thought it was as I don't hang around with certain groups for good reason. I heard someone say to me "gossip is the devil's mouthpiece", which it is, and there is so much of it in my building. My dad won't speak with me either, as if to have control/power over me. Why should I stay near relatives who want nothing to do with me? If I leave, I won't call/speak to him and he won't have the opportunity to see me on his terms only. I know no one in Hawaii now, but had friends there in the mid 80s, and a social life. I love the weather, swimming in the winter, and I will no longer have relatives around who don't want to see me. And if I don't have the money will not come back. It is so difficult to do, but I'm really ready to leave and if I had the money now would go in a month, but can pay off debt and leave in the spring...