o0sam0o's Journal, 15 June 2013

Don't feel so good. I've got the flu. I wake up dehydrated and with bad headaches. It's snowing tissues in my house and any amount of exercise longer than a few minutes has me feeling clammy and a bit light headed. I have a lot to do for school, like one more week and then it's three weeks of exams and i'm feeling anxious about it. And a bit depressed. I have a feeling i'm about to have m period so that might contribute to the depressed feeling (hormones). Also, today I decided to just go out for dinner with a couple of girlfriends. Two of them I see regularly, the others i haven't seen in a year or so because they moved away for school. I don't know why, but I wasn't feeling good, and I kinda felt like the 5th wheel tonight. I haven't felt like that in a long long time with those girls and it felt like crap(one on one they are the sweetest, in a company of three it's ok, but when we're together like that, it's always that someone is -unintentionally- left out of the convo a bit. i guess today that was me). So towards the end of it I started feeling queasy, and I wasn't really enjoying myself anyway, so I decided not to join them for drinks. Now I feel bad they're having fun without me, but I bet I'd feel bad if I was with them right now as well.
So all of the above plus the fact that I'm gonna fly on the 18th of July has me worrying if I'll fit in the seat. About 3 years back is the last time I flew and I was a couple of kg's lighter (118-120) and back then I fit, but just. Now I'm so sooo scared if I don't get back to that weight in time or even lower that they're gonna call me out. Maybe it's silly, but that plays around in my mind all the time. And since I'm studying for exams, I can't really exercise seriously, and just ugh. I don't feel good

So now I'm typing this from my bed, and I'm just gonna read for a bit I think. The perk of the night: I lost 1.9 kg since Monday. I can't really take credit for it, since I'm guessing it's probably because I'm sick. But I'd be happy to keep it off at least until monday. My next mini goal is to be around 124kg around june 24th. And to pick up the challeges again. Because I totally failed this week.

Thanks for reading, whoever reads this :p
279.3 lb Lost so far: 2.9 lb.    Still to go: 36.8 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.
on diet o0sam0o's own diet   losing 3.1 lb a week

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Hope you feel better soon. Think positive, you can do this. Good luck with the weight loss  
15 Jun 13 by member: shaz7140
aw thank you Shazz :) hadn't expected any comments so this puts me in a better mood already :) 
15 Jun 13 by member: o0sam0o
No problem!! It's nice getting comments, I find it helps motivate me. Although I tend to journal just to get my thoughts out :-)  
16 Jun 13 by member: shaz7140
haha yea, i don't really use a journal normally, but when i do, it's indeed just to get it out, and i mostly feel better once i put my thoughts down in words, but knowing someone read it and took time to respond to it just is a very nice feeling of support. so thank you :D  
16 Jun 13 by member: o0sam0o

     
 

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