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Urgh.
I've not been on here since 2nd April, which was the day I found out that my ex wasn't coming back to the country.
I wondered if there was actually any point in trying to slim down, and it didn't help that this coincided with my return to university.
So, I went on a week and a half long curry, beer and kebab binge, eating god knows how much cheese and chocolate along the way.
I too was scared to actually get on the scales.
The last five days or so though, I've been eating more sensibly.
I got on the scales this morning, and I'm 142. I can deal with that.
I think I'd probably gone up to 147ish and that wasn't the best feeling.
I'd stand looking in my underwear looking in the mirror and really not feel good about being me.
Really I just need to do this because I want to, not for anyone else. I don't have a Bad figure now, but it could be a lot better, and I feel like I've never been one of the skinny girls.
Today I'm getting back on track.
It's going to be very hard, but not impossible.
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