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I'm skipping the weigh in this morning. My weekend wan't stellar. Especially after a visit from Doug - then I tend to cook foods that he enjoys - the big breakfasts and HOTDISH! And of course, watching TV in the evening, he had to run to Dairy Queen to get a box of Buster Bars. So, today, I start AGAIN. I made chili last night and loaded it with cabbage. That always helps me lose a few pounds. I know it's only 8:42 am., but I feel like this just might be a pretty healthy day. God willing. As I was getting ready for bed last night I looked at a body I don't even recognize in the mirror. What the heck has happened to me. I really hate this feeling where weight loss and my inability to commit to losing it is on my mind 24X7. I even dream about it. If I wake up in the night, it is on my mind. What is it in me that defies the wish to lose weight by actually resisting healthy thoughts and actions and defeating myself? What does my weight insulate me from? I think I have to take a look at that and really work to understand why 'healthy' is not my first choice. I'm a good person, I have a good job.I work hard and take good care of my home and yard. I love my God and my church. I have a loving family, good friends, and lots of people who care about me. So why don't I care enough about myself to get healthy and work to live longer and healthier? Today my prayer is simply to stay on track...to go to bed tonight knowing I did a great job taking care of me.
Diet Calendar Entry for 15 October 2012:
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90 kcal
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Fat: 1.28g | Prot: 8.84g | Carb: 10.35g.
Breakfast: nonfat cottage cheese, peaches, coffee, coffeemate original. more...
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