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Ahh yes, time for another update. Haven't recorded a journal entry since September 21st. I need to keep myself in check. I haven't "hit the gym" in about 2 weeks nor have I paid much attention to the food I'm consuming. I'll admit, I am definitely making healthier choices, naturally. I don't have to coax myself into eating healthy. Smaller portions, fruit for snacks, no soda, etc. Small changes do make a big difference.
That's why when I reluctantly stepped on the scale today, I had actually lost weight. Big shock actually. A nice surprise.
I had been in Vegas for a week on vacation and lived decadent for most of that week. The only positive thing I can say is that I was constantly moving around. So much walking, my feet were aching and 9 times out of 10, I chose to take the stairs rather than the escalator.
My journey is a long one, but I'm ready to make some commitments to myself. Getting healthy definitely is a top priority, but losing weight is also important to me. There are so many activities that I am too big to participate in, it's rather embarrassing. I wouldn't dare sit on a hammock because I fear my weight is too much for it. I take my kids to the carnival and am reluctant to ride anything because it's hard to even close the door or put the seatbelt on. I want to fly and not have to worry if I'm sitting next to another big person, or worry that I'm going to be stuck in the middle seat, taking up all the room. I also just hate having to ask for a seatbelt extender. Everyone else's seat belts fit but mine. It's rather disappointing. I cannot believe I let myself become this obese. Time to stop punishing myself and start taking care of myself. I deserve better than what I've become.
No more excuses. Bottom line.
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