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I'm happy because I feel like I am really learning how to stay in control. I have my moments at night time, but I realize that I have been starting a bad habit that I don't want to keep. I was on a little binge last night and wanted some crackers. I started pulling out 3 crackers but they were stuck in the bag. As I struggled to pull them out I stoped and said to myself "what am I doing?" I had just 1 to make me feel happy and let the rest fall to the bottom of the bag. This is not who I want to be! That food is not me! I really have been letting food control my life. So I got on the internet and found a site with advise on how to stop night time binges. I made a few notes in my journal yesterday on the things I need to change. I plan on my nightly cut off time to be 7:00PM. I asked my husband to help me. I wish we had a door on the kitchen that automatically locked after hours! I love having veggies for lunch and I don't even feel ravinous, but I am worried how I will handle it at dinner time. I keep telling myself it's just for today, take it one day at a time. We will see how it goes.
Well I have to add on to here today. At work they are having a pot luck lunch. I tried to control myself and then I went to see if they had anything healthy. They really didn't. I did get a small portion of this cheesesake dessert everyone was raving about. It was worth it! I also grabed a sliver of chocolate cake, but it is still sitting here. I don't think I will have but a bite of it. I decided to remove the nuts I was going to have for dinner from my diary. I figure there was enough fat in that cheesecake thing! I am proud of myself and a little ashamed at the same time.
Diet Calendar Entry for 13 February 2008:
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972 kcal
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Fat: 27.67g | Prot: 52.02g | Carb: 113.49g.
Breakfast: garlic, onion, egg, egg. Lunch: cake, Spanish rice, chicken breast. Dinner: mixed vegetables. Snacks/Other: camomile, wine, bran flakes. more...
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