FullaBella's Journal, 19 February 2015

Checking in two days in a row - there may be hope for me yet. Yesterday was an 'A+' kind of day. I never felt hunger until late in the evening so I just drank water in continued effort to flush some more garbage from my system.

After my massage I phoned Harley and asked if he wanted to meet at a Seafood restaurant halfway between us; I was determined to regain my ability to order a healthy meal in public. But he'd just finished working out at the gym in the opposite direction and said 'how about a nice healthy meal at home (his house).'

When I arrived he had breaded fish steaks broiling - ok, the breaded part wasn't that great but they were small. I found some frozen mixed vegetables for a side and was busy making a fresh salad when he grabbed a bag of Fritos and began walking back into the living room.

I cleared my throat and stuck out my hand in a 'gimme motion' and said, 'Uhm... no.. if you want an appetizer before dinner I'm almost finished with the salads..' He handed me the fritos; I kissed his cheek and said 'We have to help each other, remember?' So we had a nice healthy meal. I brought him back into his dining room too; too many meals taken on the sofa lately. Time to restore some better habits.

I do agree with your comments yesterday - esp w/the danger of two people with the same addiction or weakness. I'm not going to sugar coat or rationalize it blindly. We have real issues and we have to use the same strength and determination we apply to the rest of the areas of our lives to regaining our health.

I seem to have found my 'thing' again - I can't describe it .. just a peaceful feeling of resolve .. and I am going to attempt to spiral UP with it. He is outdoorsy for hiking, biking, etc. We just need to find our balance food wise. And if he doesn't - I still will. I said no to unhealthy food with Cutty, I can do it with Harley. It begins with me.

I also agree coming here helps. As a dear friend here shared as explanation for their absence as well - I too find myself doing poorly when I don't come here and then find myself not wanting to come here because I'm doing poorly. Vicious cycle. One I intend to break by resuming my daily journal.

Oatmeal with craisins and walnuts this morning. Stopped halfway thru the serving I'd dished; no longer hungry. Here's to another day of nurturing my health and feeding my soul.

Bella

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670 kcal

Fat: 30.49g | Prot: 14.32g | Carb: 86.39g.   Breakfast: Walnuts, Coffee-Mate Hazelnut Coffee Creamer (Tub), Ocean Spray Craisins Dried Cranberries, Quaker Old Fashioned Oats. more...