|Start Weight:||(25 Aug 12) 285.0 lb|
|Current Weight:||(18 Nov 14) 205.0 lb|
|Goal Weight:||180.0 lb|
following: Make Peace with Myself
performance: losing 5.8 lb a week
Having battled weight issues my whole life I can say I am GREAT at losing weight. But I am horrible at keeping it off.
This will be my fifth attempt to lose a massive amount of weight and keep it off. The first was 50lbs when I was 13; 80lbs in my 20's; 100+ in my 30's (seeing a pattern here?) and 100+ lbs in my 40's.
All of these losses had the same common denominators: 1) too fast 2) starvation 3) appetite suppressants 4) binge & purge and 5) the weight came back when I couldn't deprive myself anymore or forgot my 'never again' announcement because 6) I had not fixed the problem (eating disorder) just the symptom (weight).
This time, I'm taking it slow on purpose. I'm eating more but better. I may only lose a couple of pounds a month as I use this time to take care of the emotional drama that has accompanied the weight regain in the past.
I'm older and should be smarter. I need to prove it and settle this for the last time. I am going to heal my body as I heal my life.
A few of my favorite daily mantras:
I'm not losing weight. I'm converting Fat to Muscle to be healthier.
When I am hungry, I will eat what I love. When I am bored, I will do something I love. When I am lonely, I will call someone I love. When I am sad, I will remember I am loved.
Food IS my friend I just have to choose my friends wisely.
I can HAVE any food I WANT but I find the longer I eat HEALTHY I only WANT healthy foods.
My entire life is an All You Can Eat Buffet. What will I choose today?
Just because a little is good for you doesn't mean a whole lot more is better.
One day, one moment, one bite at a time. It all adds up.