FullaBella

Start Weight:(25 Aug 12) 285.0 lb
Current Weight:(18 Nov 14) 205.0 lb
Goal Weight:180.0 lb
following: Make Peace with Myself
performance: losing 5.8 lb a week

Having battled weight issues my whole life I can say I am GREAT at losing weight. But I am horrible at keeping it off.

This will be my fifth attempt to lose a massive amount of weight and keep it off. The first was 50lbs when I was 13; 80lbs in my 20's; 100+ in my 30's (seeing a pattern here?) and 100+ lbs in my 40's.

All of these losses had the same common denominators: 1) too fast 2) starvation 3) appetite suppressants 4) binge & purge and 5) the weight came back when I couldn't deprive myself anymore or forgot my 'never again' announcement because 6) I had not fixed the problem (eating disorder) just the symptom (weight).

This time, I'm taking it slow on purpose. I'm eating more but better. I may only lose a couple of pounds a month as I use this time to take care of the emotional drama that has accompanied the weight regain in the past.

I'm older and should be smarter. I need to prove it and settle this for the last time. I am going to heal my body as I heal my life.

A few of my favorite daily mantras:

I'm not losing weight. I'm converting Fat to Muscle to be healthier.
When I am hungry, I will eat what I love. When I am bored, I will do something I love. When I am lonely, I will call someone I love. When I am sad, I will remember I am loved.
Food IS my friend I just have to choose my friends wisely.
I can HAVE any food I WANT but I find the longer I eat HEALTHY I only WANT healthy foods.
My entire life is an All You Can Eat Buffet. What will I choose today?
Just because a little is good for you doesn't mean a whole lot more is better.
One day, one moment, one bite at a time. It all adds up.

FatSecret member since: 17 Oct 12

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  Binge be gone!!!
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ended: 27 Oct 14
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  No Excuses Fitness Challenge - 75 in 31
status: Completed
ended: 05 Aug 14
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how has this journey affected you life besides weight loss?
MANY changes ALL OVER this journey of weight loss. Physical of course - ability to stand longer and walk farther without heavy breathing and pain as well as more natural ambition to be physical; first time in my life I ever had the nerve to try go-cart racing or any other 'size confined' type activity. Emotionally I've worked on the eating disorder for more than the weight loss as I sought a more positive outlook and forgiving approach. People around me have noticed more than the size differences; they've commented on my overall changes. As I've recently REGAINED some of the weight loss, I can tell the difference physically - more pain when standing a longer time. This site has been very important to me as well; showing up here reminds me of why I began this endeavor and how vital it is to my overall health.
posted 18 Dec 2014, 10:29
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I would love to see this same video but with the person feeding them waving a carrot stick or a stalk of celery... see how the baby would react then...
posted 28 Aug 2014, 10:50
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You're not hijacking Mummy; it's fine. The one's encouraging Mom to have a Marlboro were intriguing. My how some times have changed; but others haven't.
posted 28 Aug 2014, 02:07
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I know.. I was conflicted this morning when I saw it.. my first reaction was 'great... let's create disordered eating young in life by making the kid want the sugar/dessert more than their actual 'food'.

But then thought about it thru the day. On the one hand.. how many babies have we fed making the propeller sound while saying 'open up the hanger.. here comes the plane' or 'choo choo'...

I'm wondering if the kid actually recognizes candy or just 'look.. it's red.. something different. I know I didn't like that stuff on the spoon.. what's this brown shaped thing in their fingers? After all.. I eat with my fingers.. '

I guess it's like anything else.. we all watch the same video and attach different conclusions and our own emotions.
posted 27 Aug 2014, 21:25
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Finally recovered a bit physically to get back to journaling. The vendor event went well - it was a trade show of my profession but rather than setting ...

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