rbanhatti's Journal, 23 February 2018

I've been reading through my old journal entries and it's quite interesting to see my feelings at each stage of my weight loss. I was in such a rush to lose as much as possible, I even lost 4kg in my first week! Which now, I find ridiculous. My attitude is so different this time, I'm much happier with a slower pace, I'm aiming for losing 1 or 2 pounds a week, hoping for a more sustainable weight loss. I don't have a particular target weight (it was my Japan trip, and my wedding last time). Not having that date or goal is, I feel, what led to me feeling quite lost and depressed and also led to the eventual weight gain after those events had passed. I'm also not full of self loathing like I used to be. Yes, I'm a little bigger, but I don't hate myself for it, it just is what it is. I'm not tormented about my fat rolls and my self confidence hasn't taken a pummelling. I haven't cried myself to sleep because I hate the shape of my body. Now, I can't believe I used to feel that way. However, it's been long enough since I got back from Japan, I shouldn't be moping and wishing I could be back there, I need to just take the steps to get back to feeling light and active and be at my best.

176.4 lb Lost so far: 8.8 lb.    Still to go: 22.0 lb.    Diet followed reasonably well.

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2121 kcal

Fat: 85.64g | Prot: 70.13g | Carb: 247.74g.   Breakfast: Avocados, Allinson Wholemeal Batch. Lunch: Baked Sweetpotato (Peel Not Eaten, Fat Added in Cooking), Green String Beans, Nando's Peri-Peri Cooking Sauce (Medium), Roasted Grilled or Baked Chicken, Broccoli, Carrots (without Salt, Drained, Cooked, Boiled). Dinner: Roasted Potato (Fat Added in Cooking), Birds Eye Veggie Nuggets, Marks & Spencer Sea Bream Fillets. Snacks/Other: Peroni Lager (Bottle), Applesauce Cake without Icing, Cadbury Hot Chocolate Instant, Bliss Ball, Bahlsen Choco Leibniz, Tea with Milk, Galaxy Cookie Crumble. more...

1814 kcal

Activities & Exercise: Sleeping - 23 hours and 59 minutes, Resting - 1 minute. more...