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The last couple of days, I have been working on self esteem issues. Do I really deserve to live a healthy lifestyle, what makes me think I can accomplish living my life at 150 pounds? Why don't I just throw in the towel and go back to my old eating habits, it would be cheaper. I will never lose this weight, I am only lieing to myself, friends, and family (again). So where do I go from here? I am trying to motivate myself with positive self talk when I can get it in...I try to tell myself that I do deserve the type of healthy lifestyle that I want to achieve, but doubts are still lingering. I have been trying to face emotional issues by saying it is ok to lose weight, that I do deserve it no matter what anyone else says. I think my husband is more secured within the marriage with his overweight wife. However, he does encourage me when I say something about throwing in the towel, he will say that I have worked so hard. So there are mixed signals, he throws off. I just say that because it is easier with his support...well I am not going to quit as of yet, I haven't walked in a 5 days, maybe that is what I need to clear the cob webs since I normally walk 4 to 5 days a week.
Diet Calendar Entry for 09 February 2012:
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1792 kcal
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Fat: 132.43g | Prot: 141.01g | Carb: 11.58g.
Breakfast: little sizzlers, scrambled eggs. Lunch: green olives, 1 tomato, lettuce, cheddar cheese, ranch dressing, chicken breast . Dinner: rib eye. more...
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