pamBA's Journal, 05 February 2010

My mother in law had an accident and she has scheduled surgery for monday. Of course I'm not going to see my boyfriend at lease for another week.

I feel terribly lonely. Don't have any friends. I even called my mother to ask her out tomorrow. Amazing.

If I feel lonely I just think of food. Cause if I eat I don't feel that bad. I am having fun eating. And I enjoy eating alone. A lot. Cause I can eat freely and nobody eats my bag of chips. Horrible.

I have 2 movies, Lost - season 4 pending, and a lot of cleaning to do around my appartment.

I love to think that this will pass. That eventually food is not going to be an issue for me. But then I remember. I have issues with food since... FOREVER.. nothing will change!!! I will always be sick when it comes to food. Its sad.

I don't want to be alone.

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Eating when you're lonely, sad, angry, depressed, or happy, isn't worth the weeks of anguish you feel when you have gained weight. Eating doesn't make us happy, WE make us happy. You have to decide what's more important, food, or healthy living...that moment of a cheat, does not lift your mood, it just buries your issues under layers of fat. Stay strong...life is always a challenge. If you cheat, just never give up, and get back on...you can't ever rely on others to make you happy. You need to love yourself, and be okay with being alone...others enrich our lives, but can't be our catalyst for happiness... 
05 Feb 10 by member: usemyotheraddy
Thanks so much! You are comepletly right. I cannot rely on others to be happy. I can't keep on burying my issues under tons of fat. THANK YOU! 
06 Feb 10 by member: pamBA

     
 

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