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Happy Wednesday FS friends,
So the washer repair person came by today and washer is now functional. That being said, last night my microwave went kaput, so off to Canadian Tire to pick up another small, on sale one. Not sure why things aren't made to last anymore, but so be it.
Sent John home this morning so I could get some painting done. With his lung issues and possible cancer the paint fumes don't help his breathing one bit. I also figured that it would be easier for him to get to his PET scan in Hamilton next Monday from his place east of Toronto, rather than mine, as I will be in the path of the total eclipse and they are expecting 1 million visitors in the region on the Canadian side alone. Will make for a wee bit of traffic methinks. We had made a date to experience the eclipse together, then the call came that a PET scan appointment had opened up. Glad for the scan, sad that this rare eclipse event wasn't going to be shared.
Anyhoo. Remain on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster as despite his issues with alcohol, he has always been a strong, vibrant, full of life person. Together in past years we have renovated 3 homes (I was gopher girl, granite tile sorter, mudder, sander, grouter, wallpaper stripper, painter and landscape person, he was the trades part of things). To see him constantly tired and sleeping much of the day now is such a change. He's losing weight too, now at 6'6" and 185lbs. Part of his depression likely has to do with his work which he loves but cannot do as he cannot pass the requisite medical, so what would distract him normally isn't an outlet for him now.
With my own weight loss, I'm full of beans and eager to tackle the long list of projects yet don't want to wake him whilst doing so. Although I've tried to be stoic and accept the things I cannot change, my eyes well up every so often and I just start bawling. Have to think positive as we don't know what we don't know.
Luckily I haven't resorted to food as comfort although all that chocolate on sale right now is awfully tempting. Settled on a pommelo instead. Does the "want" for stuff that I shouldn't have ever go away? You could argue that "well just have a few". I'm not built that way unfortunately. A bag of mini-egg chocolates or a panettone would be gone in a day. Two at the most.
And so it goes. One foot in front of the other.
Over and out
Diet Calendar Entry for 03 April 2024:
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1223 kcal
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Fat: 53.68g | Prot: 106.84g | Carb: 87.95g.
Breakfast: GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla, Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge. Lunch: Neilson Dairy 18% Table Cream, Kirkland Signature Mixed Nut Butter with Seeds, Apples. Dinner: Kraft Classic Caesar Dressing, Egg, Everything Veggie Salad, Marc Angelo Pork Souvlaki. Snacks/Other: GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla, Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge, Pummelo. more...
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