jodyme's Journal, 13 December 2015

Sad day!! I do not allowed myleff to eate today coz of my binging of 1321 cal yesterday night!!!! I I can fast as long as possible, maybe at least 86 hours!!! I would go on the scale on wensday with a result of at lesat 130 lbs. Yes, I want to drop 10 lbs in one week. Yes it s possible!!!! I offered myself a gift in advance for christmas satuday afternoon. I used to wear XL and then now I wear some MEDIUM size!!!! I was sooooooo proud of me!!!!! I don t know what happened in my crasy head to eat 1321 cal !!! Now I feel guilty and horrible and like I don t deserve those new close anymore!!! I feel like I have to repair something by fasting as long as possible!!! Feeling so sad,,,,

Diet Calendar Entry for 13 December 2015:
458 kcal Fat: 22.75g | Prot: 22.52g | Carb: 39.50g.   Breakfast: Water (Bottled). Lunch: Cookie, Chocolate Chip Cookies (Soft Type), Egg, Egg, Cheese, White Bread. more...

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Jody- pick yourself, dust yourself off, and start all over again! Fasting will not help in the long run but will only set up a bad cycle of fasting and binging. It’s true. What you need to do is pour some gentleness into yourself and put on those new clothes so you can see how far you’ve come, and then get right back at it. If you feel like you need to do something to “make up” for the binging, then go for a good long walk today. Breather some fresh air. Exercise ALWAYS makes you feel better. And then, start recording every single thing that goes in your mouth. It really helps. You can do this. 
13 Dec 15 by member: Revaudrey
Thank you Revaudrey! 
13 Dec 15 by member: jodyme
Jody- I have battled bulimia for years, finally breaking the cycle this summer, but it's a struggle that I work through consciously on a regular basis. The crash and binge and then again crash is a result of restrictive eating, its your body's natural reaction to swings in blood sugars (possibly) and calorie deficit, NOT a failure of discipline. If this helps, I tell myself that I am more than what I eat or what the scale says, I have this body which is healthy and allows me to enjoy life and it is my partner in this journey. You need to go give yourself a big hug(don't laugh) and tell yourself thank you. Also, I always ask myself, what is it I want today and my future to look like? Controlled by food and numbers or freedom from that? It helps me to keep moving instead of getting trapped in a mindset of hopelessness. You may not be that far into things, but my advice may help. You had a moment where you consumed , so what? You can move forward without punishing yourself any further, you deserve better.  
13 Dec 15 by member: alabasterleg
best wishes 
13 Dec 15 by member: TheLovelyMrsG
Binging and fasting is not the solution. You need to change your thinking and metabolism. Try Nutrimost.  
13 Dec 15 by member: LooseLucy

     
 

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