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I feel terrible and stupid and weak right now. I've been trying to beg my boyfriend to help me, and he just tempts me. I guess he doesn't think I'm being serious when I ask him to help me and that I want to diet so bad. We don't have a set schedule, we're out all the time, and when we're with his family away from home, I have no control over what is being cooked and I don't know what to do anymore.
I can't feel like this every couple of weeks. I feel like I do good, and then all of a sudden everything comes up and I'm doing terrible again. Maybe it's just hormones, but I don't feel like I'm ever going to get rid of it again. I don't feel like I'm strong enough to do it. Every day I feel guilty like I"m cheating and I just can't stick to anything, like I'm not really even trying and it makes me feel terrible about myself.
I need someone to push me every single day, or I don't think I'll make it. I'm not sure what to do. Could use all the help/advice I could get right now. Feeling a little drastic...
Diet Calendar Entry for 10 September 2009:
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1400 kcal
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Fat: 52.59g | Prot: 61.72g | Carb: 181.60g.
Breakfast: weight watchers smoothie, 1% milk. Lunch: italian pasta salad, boneless skinless chicken breast, grapes. Dinner: garlic bread, fried calamari, sun dried tomato pesto, fettuccini. Snacks/Other: baked tostitos, pico de gallo. more...
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