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A year ago today I woke up with a bad cold and ended up being sick all of January and in the hospital the entire last week of the month. My health has improved from then but generally deteriorated this year, leaving me feeling in pain most of the time and much older than my chronological years. I now use a cane or a walker all of the time and am in need of a hip replacement but can't have one because of my heart problems.
This year, in spite of the fact that exercise is extremely difficult, I intend to find a way to do SOMETHING every day, even if it includes getting out of a chair and walking around my house. I also hope to start using my rebounder again, which is easy on my joints and doesn't require being outdoors. I may rejoin the YMCA but not until I've lost some weight and feel committed. I wasted enough money on that in past years that could better have been used to pay bills or something. Why pay if you don't go?
I have already started setting myself up for the year ahead. I entered all known appointments, birthdays and anniversaries, events and holidays on my 2015 calendar -- both in my planner and on my Google calendar that syncs with my cell phone. I entered all the weigh-in dates for the year in my TOPS "bank book." I've been thinking about goals I want to set for myself this year as I clean out and rearrange my pantry.
I seriously want to improve my health and become the best I can be in 2015. I may not be able to do everything I'd like, but I can do a lot of things differently and get different results. I have not been kind to myself and feel like I have been spinning my wheels and getting nowhere for years now.
I'm not getting any younger and feel at least 20 years older than I really am. I've let myself go as if I had nothing to live for, and that is just not the case. There's still so much I want to do in the last years of my life, and I'd like to be able to enjoy each and every day feeling good, filled with energy and relatively pain-free.
Today I will think about my New Year's resolutions and record them when I've come up with my list.
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