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Well, here I am back at the highest weight I have ever been. In the past year, I have gained back the 15 pounds that I had lost on WW. I know that the WW at work meetings really helped me. I just couldn't move past cancellation of the meetings. I tried the local meeting but it was just too big and too impersonal. I tried WW on-line and that worked okay. But I can get the same tools and support from here and not have to pay for it. So, here I am.
My heart and mind have not been into weight loss and tracking, though. I have been a lot of junk -- out of habit, boredom, stress and exhaustion. I have been enjoying adult beverages more often than usual as well. I know it all adds up. I know I need to be more careful. I know I am not setting a good exampel for C. And I know I am not feeling good about myself. This in turn makes me want to eat more. What a circular trap it all is!
So, as of today I am 183 pounds. I know I need to eat less, track what I eat and exercise. I've joined some challenges to help me focus on some goals.
Here are some things I WILL work on this week:
1. No food after 8:00 p.m. -- That means you pita chips and hummus! My herbal tea is calling my name instead!
2. Drink 8+ glasses of water a day -- I have been dehydrated for what feels like forever. This will help my energy levels and my hunger levels.
3. No adult beverages Sunday through Thursday and then only in moderation Friday and Saturday in social settings.
4. Check into the FS website at lesat 2x a day to track and stay focused.
5. Exercise 3x this week at least
6. Be kinder to myself -- I deserve some compassion from my biggest critic!
I am so weary most days. I have to fight to convince myself to get to the gym or to not snack. I can feel that I am not myself lately. My patience with everything is thin and I feel the need to put on sweats and curl up with a book.
I can do better than this. I can be better. And this all starts with taking care of myself.
(Later in day)
I went to the gym during lunch. I really wish I knew how to get out of my own head sometimes!
1 mile run
1/2 mile walk
3/4 mile run
1/4 mile walk
1/4 mile run
1/4 mile walk
Total: 3 miles in approx 40 minutes (22 min running; 18 min walking)
I always have big plans when I go to the gym. I can run further, longer, or faster. But I always manage to talk myself out of it. I can't seem to convince my head that my body can do more than it thinks. My body is capable. My mind is not convinced though. I read a blog about a book called "Mind Gym" I think I need to read.
Tomorrow at the gym I will do quick 1 mile run and then work on upper body strength. Let's see how that goes.
Diet Calendar Entries for 16 September 2013:
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1558 kcal
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Fat: 50.18g | Prot: 72.45g | Carb: 209.09g.
Breakfast: Winn-Dixie Greek Nonfat Yogurt Strawberry, Splenda No Calorie Sweetener Packets, Coffee, Bananas. Lunch: Michelina's Authentico Sweet & Sour Chicken. Dinner: Chop't Chile-Lime Dressing, Peanuts, Dole Shredded Carrots, Grape Tomatoes, Lettuce, Beef Top Sirloin (Trimmed to 1/8" Fat). Snacks/Other: Welch's Fruit Snacks Mixed Fruit (Package), Publix Baby Carrots, Cracker Barrel 2% Extra Sharp Cheddar Cheese. more...
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2667 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Walking (exercise) - 3.5/mph - 18 minutes, Running (jogging) - 5/mph - 22 minutes, Desk Work - 8 hours, Resting - 7 hours and 20 minutes, Sleeping - 8 hours. more...
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