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In one of the worst places personally I've ever been in. My marriage in hanging on the edge, literally, and the coming days and weeks are literally going to see my other half and I come together and figure out how to make incredibly difficult circmstances work for us, or decide to end our marriage. I've never in my life felt so broken.
I'm doing what I can to stay busy and focus on something positive. Watching my calorie intake to ensure I don't start eating my feelings which I'm very prone to and working out for no other reason than to help deal with the stress. Both are the opposite of what I want to do, but if I can make it a habit while I'm dying inside, I can keep it a habit when and if things get better.
The worst part is no one knows what's going on. I can't face anyone with all of this yet. There's just too much and I can't stand the looks of pity, confusion and sympathy I'll get... so you my FS peeps are the only ones who will know for now. I had to get it out, but I don't want to talk about it.
Diet Calendar Entries for 06 August 2013:
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1551 kcal
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Fat: 53.18g | Prot: 74.57g | Carb: 187.43g.
Breakfast: Kraft Miracle Whip Light Dressing, White Tuna Fish (Drained Solids In Water, Canned), Dempster's Whole Grains Ancient Grains Bread. Lunch: Coca-Cola Diet Coke (Can), Subway 6" Turkey Breast w/ Cheese. Dinner: Water, Subway 6" Turkey Breast w/ Cheese. Snacks/Other: Olives (Jumbo-Super Colossal), Kirkland Signature Organic Salsa, Multigrain Tortilla Chips, Water, Coca-Cola Diet Coca-Cola (Bottle), Light French Onion Dip, Broccoli Flower Clusters, Celery, Master Choice Baby Carrots, Cucumber (with Peel). more...
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4003 kcal
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Activities & Exercise:
Hiking - 30 minutes, Housework - 30 minutes, Driving - 1 hour, Sitting - 9 hours, Resting - 3 hours, Sleeping - 10 hours. more...
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